Just At A Loss
Sunday, October 07, 2012
I can't even describe what I am feeling right now. When I first started this journey, my goal was just to lose 10% of my starting weight. That was 32 lbs. I did not know if I could even lose 32 lbs. That seemed like an awful lot amount to lose.
I had lots of ups and downs. Was even horribly embarrassed last month because I couldn't hardly ride any rides at six flags because I didn't even fit in the rides. I have struggled just even trying to walk 4/10 of a mile for several months. Would I ever be able to lose 32lbs.
I even went through weeks were I would gain and lose the same 5 and 6 lbs. I was getting so discouraged. Then I asked someone that I knew who walked if they would like a walking buddy. This was very out of character for me. I was really surprised when this person gladly invited me along for the walks. Since then things have changed.
The first time we walked together, I walked 2 miles. I felt like I was going to throw up on the 2nd mile but I made it. My walking buddy told me that she thought I would just do 1 mile, and was just shocked when I did 2 miles. Well here I am 3 weeks later, and I am walking 6 miles now each time. That just blows my mind because I have not done this type of activity level since I was 19 yrs old, and I am now 39 . . . soon to be 40. When I was 19, I was doing 4 miles at a time. It was a walking/running combo, mostly running. So as you can see this just really has shocked me.
Well if that was not all. There was more. I weighed in today, and I wanted to just cry. Not only did I hit my 32 lb weight loss goal but I surpassed it. I lost a total of 33.2 lbs. I am just sitting here crying as I write because four months ago, I didn't even think this was possible. Four months ago, I could barely walk 4/10's of a mile. Now here I am walking six miles.
One month ago, I was horribly embarrassed by my body because I couldn't fit in hardly any of the rides at six flags. Today, it doesn't matter because there will be another day for six flags.
I can't even put into words what I feel. Four months ago, my BMI was 53.28 and I was classified as Super Obese. Today my BMI is 47.75 and I am now classified as Morbidly Obese. That may not seem exciting to some but for me that is exciting because I am going down on the obese spectrum. Four months ago, my total measurements were 427 inches. Today those measurements were 399.5 and I have lost a total of 27.5 inches.
So in celebration of reaching my goal I went for a six mile walk. I set a new 10% goal to lose of my current weight which is 28.7 lbs. I also have been wanting a new phone, so that is going to be my reward for losing my 1st 10%.