Even though I have Sparkpeople set as my home page in an effort to force myself to use the site more, I see that it's been 2 months since my last blog. I wish even for one day that I could put myself first above career, husband, children, etc. I make poor choices for my health each day to make my routine less complicated. How do I convince myself to take the rougher road? My back pain is relentless and keeps me couch-bound almost nightly. I often wonder if choosing exercise instead of DVR would improve my pain. I just can't even think to function most days beyond the pain. I hate that I am overweight. I hate that I don't have the courage to push past the pain. Here's to hoping that some relief will come in the next few weeks so that I can become active again.