Today, I slept for a really long time (I got out of the bed at 1:30pm) and ate a little, but I mostly was reflecting on the things that have been going on and are going on in my life. I pulled out a journal and read the first page from 2009 and it listed one of the many things that I have going on to this day. I had to questions myself, are you destined to be working on your health, your credit, building business, I mean what are you doing or not doing that you have not changed these things in your life.
Then, I found a book “Identifying Breaking Curses –John Eckhardt and read on the curse of adversity ( the book covers several curses but this was the one that spoke out to me0. It was a wow moment – adversity yields frustration and the scripture lesson was Deuteronomy 28:45-48: 45 All these curses will come on you. They will pursue you and overtake you until you are destroyed, because you did not obey the LORD your God and observe the commands and decrees he gave you. 46 They will be a sign and a wonder to you and your descendants forever. 47 Because you did not serve the LORD your God joyfully and gladly in the time of prosperity, 48 therefore in hunger and thirst, in nakedness and dire poverty, you will serve the enemies the LORD sends against you. He will put an iron yoke on your neck until he has destroyed you”
I had to face it because in this book, Eckhardt points out solutions and it started with this scripture: Haggai 1:6-7 “You have sown much, and bring in little; You eat, but do not have enough; You drink, but you are not filled with drink; You clothe yourselves, but no one is warm;
And he who earns wages, Earns wages to put into a bag with holes.” 7 Thus says the LORD of hosts: “Consider your ways!
Consider my ways – that is key, to these whole situations in my life. Consider my ways – and when I did, I have come up short. I am thankful that I serve a God who allows me to repent and be forgiven. Looking at my ways is not easy to do, much the same as writing a letter about my fat self is to my healthy self. While I am not Catholic, the element of confessional is very appealing to me. I must also say, spending time during the day, recounting where I have sinned is one way to enlighten myself on just what I do unconsciously as well as consciously. It is taking back responsibility and moving excuses or even setting myself up to even garner an excuse.
I am embarking upon my exercise program for my life – it is not about an hour here and an hour there; it is about adapting exercise as such a part of my life as breathing is. My body needs to move – it needs to feel oxygenated – it needs life. I have exercised, but I have half-a@@ed it – and admitting that is a powerful release. I have a gym, videos, tapes, wonderful outdoors to move and grow and strengthened and I did not take advantage of it. Now, I have to live
What made me so pensive is all of the events of this day but what hit me square in the face was this blog from member CRISSA1669 – entitled “ Be Careful for What You Wish For”. Please please read this and take it to heart. This blog should take away any desire to even remotely think of an excuse: www.sparkpeople.com/mypa
Once you have digested it, you will understand why I was so pensive; I am standing now, knowing what I must do and how I must be and why I am