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Saturday, October 06, 2012

Happy to report that progress continues!

I've hit 58lbs total lost so far and am looking forward to when I can say 60. I'm hoping I can say it by the end of October (and I think I'll be able to!) Weight loss has slowed down a little bit the last couple of weeks, but that's just the way it goes. It's still going in the right direction and I'm good with that! I know if l continue to push forward, then results will come.

We talk about all the physical changes as we lose weight, changes in our appearance, needing new clothes (yay!), increased energy levels, easier movement, and so on...but one change has been more apparent to me lately, and it's the one that always tends to get fluffed aside...an "oh, yeah, that too. Sure..." But it seems that not as much focus/energy/attention is given to it. It's the mental change that we go through during this journey.

I remember the weird feelings/reaction that I had several weeks ago when I realized I no longer fit into the plus sized clothes in the Lane Bryant catalog. Recently, I've noticed that I'm 'nicer' to myself in my thoughts. I'm not beating myself up anymore. If I can't get in a walk/jog one night - I'm not lazy, nor should I throw in the towel. I'll work harder to get it in the next night. I'll allow myself to indulge on Chinese food for my husband's birthday, see the scale stay up ALL WEEK LONG after the fact, and instead of freaking out about what I'm seeing on the scale, and instead of giving up or cursing my weakness, or wishing there would never be special occasions that ruin my progress - instead I focus on drinking water all week and eating healthy, truly knowing that the occasional indulgence wont break me. Just get back to one positive choice after another and it all comes out in the wash. It's no big deal! I'm learning to live with reality, to forgive myself, and moving on. It's almost liberating!

So many changes over this past year...both physical and mental. I'm happy with them all! It is a difficult journey. It's hard work and, in my opinion, boils down to a 90% mental game. But success breeds success. When you reach each goal, you want that great feeling to continue! Next week is the Flutie 5k. I'm excited and nervous. I'm looking forward to achieving this goal and trying to come up with another one to keep me on the straight and narrow. (o:

OH! And one more thought to share - NEVER did I think I'd like exercise (and I still don't 'like" it) But boy, oh, boy, now that we're back in school - Heading out for a walk/jog after an incredibly stressful day is something that I actually WANT to do!
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    I like how you say you are getting nicer to yourself. I haven't reached that yet - but I do find myself thinking about how I am going to keep these changes the rest of my life. When I am running I especially think about how long can I realistically keep up running. So my mind wanders to other sorts of exercises or sports that I can incorporate into a healthy lifestyle.

    You are doing fantastic and I know you are inspiring so many people in your life (including your Spark pals). emoticon
    1959 days ago
  • 133STRONG
    Loved this entry. Very inspiring.
    1959 days ago
    You have done a fantastic job and once those Mental changes are there You know you definitely have things on the right path!!! So proud of all the progress you have made!!!
    1964 days ago
  • DIANER2014
    Congratulations on your progress! emoticon
    1966 days ago
    1966 days ago
    You've hit the nail on the head with the mental aspect. I know early on in my journey I was very hard on myself if I gave in and ate something that was delicious but off limits (off limits means I can only have on Saturday). I would go through the normal "you suck", You're weak", "you can't do this" cycle. Now, when I eat something that I shouldn't have during the week, I just remind myself to do better tomorrow, and hope that my Saturday weigh in does not reflect the screw up too badly. I think I like myself more now that I used to, I'm not so disappointed in myself overall anymore.
    1967 days ago
  • DNRAE1
    Ok, Hopeful Hippo wrote what I was going to write.....me, too! me, too! me, too! I swear that once you get the mental changes kicking in......feeling positive, not beating yourself up, and looking forward to the small steps forward.....it really does feel like a lifestyle change! Great blog! emoticon
    1967 days ago
    As I'm reading this I think to myself, me too me too me too...yup me too...LOL

    It IS really amazing the mental transformations as well as the physcial ones. I applaud you on it and say "woo hoo" on both the scale AND non scale victories!!

    great blog

    AWESOME even!!

    1967 days ago
    YOU ARE FANTASTIC!! Think of how many people your are inspiring every day as they watch you become healthy and fit!!

    You are leading by example! Best wishes always on your journey to good health.
    1967 days ago
    You are an amazing person and an inspiration to me! I agree the mental journey is something we often forget. It makes me think that it's almost harder to get over my mental limitations/blocks than it is my physical limitations/blocks. I can walk away from a treadmill, bike, or weights; I can't walk away from my mind and the things I sometimes say about myself. Thank you for reminding me of the progress made in this area too!

    So proud of you and your accomplishments--and you CAN reach your 60# goal! :)

    1967 days ago
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