In a slump
Saturday, October 06, 2012
I'm trying to get my butt back into shape after having experienced a major slump. I would say that I have not been exercising for about a month now. I mean I had moments where I might exercise one day a week or something but as we all know that is not going to do much of anything. I remember receiving a compliment in September and it seems that once I got the compliment I went into slump mode. It was as if having someone say, hey you are looking great told my brain that yep, your done. You've reached your goal. NO IMPOSSIBLE! I weighed 203 lbs. at the time that I got the compliment and I am now at 208. 203 still left me with 53 some odd pounds to lose before I reached my goal weight and having gained some of the weight back means I am further off.
I will say though that this slump has definitely taught me some things. For one excuses can come from anywhere. At work I had taken on a few more responsibilities because one of the ladies had went on maternity leave. So I was carrying her workload and mine. What I told myself was I was too busy to exercise, yet I had a very similar work load last year and that was without someone else's workload, yet I exercised every single day. S throughout all of this I told myself when she comes back I will get back to working out. Well she's been back for a week, so now it's time for me to hold up my end of the bargain.
The other thing I learned is that when I was exercising all the aches and pains I used to experience in my body went away. As soon as I got back to slacking. The aches and pains came back. Bummer.
I also had a beach body coach. In the process I switched coaches because there was nothing going on in the forums. I just didn't feel supported. So I joined another coach. She was even worse. She just wanted me to become a coach so she could make money off of me. So I went back to my old coach and now nothing still. So I say all of this to say that the only person I can count on in this health journey is me. I started looking for accountability and support here on sparkpeople, and that didnt work out because no one would answer me in the forums. I joined beachbody to get support and it was a little more helpful, but again, no one would really hold me accountable. I want to change the way I look. I want to be and do better, so I have to do it. I've decided to become a coach to give people the level of support I wish I could have gotten.
In this weight loss journey you need a friend. You need someone who will tell you to go exercise, support you when your feeling down, help you put down the haggen daz, and provide you with the advice you need to conquer any obstacle. I want to be that for others. As I type that right now, I am about to cry, because really and truly that's all I wanted in this journey. I was already depressed about my weight, and turning to things and folks that didn't really help just made me feel worse. I really hope that i can be that support for others because no one should have to go it alone.
So with that I am about to get off of my tush and head for my first 5k your way rookie training program run and then its off to the gym. Time to get back to focusing on me and God. God has truly been been my support in all this. So off I go!