Friday, October 05, 2012
I've made enough excuses. It's time to stop the madness and get back on track. It's time to make decisions that benefit me in the long run, not those that give me an immediate reward followed by incessant guilt. 5 lbs weight gain in a week? this time was the last time.
This is my manifesto to quit these unhealthy habits:
1. stop the nut butter madness - averaging a jar a week right now! goal is to get this to NONE.
2. stop the salt madness! this includes almond milk (surprising, I know), beans, tomato sauces... those are my main culprits
3. only eat during the day - possibly the one thing that's ruining my success. I only eat those unhealthy things at night. Perhaps I need to keep a glass of water in my room, on the counter, and a water bottle in the fridge so I'm not tempted to eat things when I'm up at night.
I had a horrible almond butter session last night. Damn my incapability to sleep through the night! I take melatonin, calcium, and magnesium to try to alleviate my insomnia; it's not working well.
My stats this morning: 27"-32.5"-19.5".
At least my thighs haven't ballooned like the rest of me. I don't even want to know what I weigh. Earlier this week, I was at 123.6 (that was the best day!!!), but so many bad things have gone into my mouth since then...
veggie detox next week. NO MORE NUT BUTTER. sweet bajeezum. it's so frustrating that I can't just tell myself no!
I'm going to learn to say 'no'. It's going to be the most liberating experience ever.
Here's to me learning self control!
what's on the menu today: 1440 cals
tons of stirfry with pinto beans
1 salmon fillet
making up for a huge binge on Monday. losing it a pound at a time.