T Minus 87
Friday, October 05, 2012
I'm still waiting to get fired up. I'm doing little things, but no where close to the zeal with which I had in August.
My computer crashed as it's wont to do with Windows 7 *mad face* and I lost a lot of data in a fitness spreadsheet I have that goes back to 2005. But I realized the important stuff just need to be reformatted. So, since I had to fuss around with that for awhile, I took a look at my weightloss trend over time. I've done this before, but this time I took my highest and lowest weights for each year and determined the average.
The little dip in 2006 and 2007 was because my husband almost died in 2006. I don't know about you, but tragedy kinda kills the appetite. Over the next three years, I just kept growing and growing. My husband stopped moving and so did I. In 2011, I took advantage of a health coach service through my employer. It took a month, a few more pounds, and an introduction to Sparkpeople before I got serious.
I'm happy to be trending in the right direction. I need to be more patient with myself and learn to live life. I'm in a rut because my mind is stuck on the same track. I need more in my life than this constant focus on weightloss. The BLC team challenges aren't fun, they're tedious to me. I'm not connecting with the team. But I don't want to be a quitter. I took a leave when things got busy last season. I almost didn't get on a team this season because I took that time off. And now I'm struggling to stay active. I feel horrible to contemplate dropping out now. I'll stick with it, but it's likely I may finally come to the realization that the structure with these team challenges is actually demotivating for me.