Friday, October 05, 2012
These past 2 months have been real challenging for me. Brendan and I have had some crappy things happen that have not helped my progress. When I'm stressed, I do one of two things: don't eat or eat a ton. I know MANY others do this too. I've been eating well MOST of the time, but I've had a lot of "comfort food binges," pigging out on things like chips, crackers, cheese, bread, among other foods I otherwise haven't touched for MONTHS! And the only reason I'm doing this is because in my head, I still have not convinced myself that FOOD CANNOT MAKE ME FEEL BETTER!!!!
I know what DOES make me feel better:
-going to the park
-playing with my pets
-getting my work done instead of procrastinating
-drinking a glass of ice cold water
When I go to food for comfort, I need to think of this list instead of stuffing my face with food that just makes me feel guilty and miserable. I'm sick of making myself feel that way, especially when I know it's possible not to.
Today, I'm dedicating myself to myself, committing to thinking about what is ultimately best for me instead of only what feels good for the moment. And in the future, I will thank myself for finally seeing who is most important: me.