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Thinking things over

Thursday, October 04, 2012

The last couple of days have been odd. Yesterday my boss tentatively asked me if I would be willing to play Miss Piggy during our Halloween event. At first I was taken aback, she said that the assistant manager said I wouldn't be happy about the idea. He wasn't necessarily wrong. Miss Piggy is a fine character but I cannot shake the idea of me being large and playing a pig. A Pig. You see when I was a pre=teen that danged pig movie "Gordy" came out. My name is Jordi. It was hell for me. I wasn't a fat kid but I wasn't a stick either and middle school boys are not the kindest. Besides that if I were pink there is an unfavourable resemblance to my porcine brethren. BUT my size is not the reason I was asked to play Miss Piggy the reasons are as follow : 1) The person who normally plays Miss Piggy at this even is unavailable and all the replacements are out of the picture (broken arm, out of town, previously committed) 2) I'm excellent at playing characters 3) I'm super friendly.

So why does this bother me so much? I could have refused and my boss would have understood. However I know I'll do a great job and I'll have a fun time. As I was reading the script I could hear Miss Piggy's voice in my head and I remembered how much I liked her when I was a kid. I'm definitely going to do it but I just don't know why I'm feeling so sensitive about the subject.

To top it off as I was waiting for a teacher to organize her kids before I started our hike today one of the young students poked my stomach and made his fingers bounce off of it while saying "boing boing". What the crap? I'm usually great with kids but this really threw me off. I told him not to poke me and he asked if he could hug me instead and I said sure so that ended well.

It just feels like although I'm busting my buns to alter my life and become healthier, I'm not doing it fast enough. Of course no one on the outside knows what exactly I'm working towards.

Just feeling a bit frustrated which is unlike me as I'm usually so cheerful. Over-sensitive? perhaps. I must admit usually I'm pretty relaxed about most things even jabs about my size. There is an older man who visits my place of work rather frequently and recently he made two funny remarks at my expense. Once while I was wearing a coat on an oddly chilly day he stated that he was surprised I was cold as he thought I had enough insulation; this comment didn't bother me, in fact I thought it was rather amusing. A few weeks later I had to end our conversation because I was being relieved for lunch, so I stated I had better go eat my lunch now and he stated that I better hurry or else I might starve to death; this comment was just odd.

So why is it that when I'm trying people seem more apt to say things about my weight than in all the years when I did nothing?!
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    i meant to say miss piggy is like the honey badger.. not the honey pass.. whatever that is.. hmmm!

    I am the honey badger too :)
    1989 days ago
    I am the honey badger :)
    1989 days ago
    We al have our sensitive days where we probably pay too much attention to the comments of others and their potential between-the-lines meanings.

    I think miss piggy is a badass, and she is like the honey pass, she just doesn't care!! She continues to be her fabulous self. I always loved her as a kid too.

    If you need to be cheered up, youtube the honey badger. BE THE HONEY BADGER!
    1990 days ago
    Thanks ladies. No sugar is going fine except for the birthday part I planned to mess up on anyway.

    Today as I was sitting with 3-6 year olds waiting for everyone to show up for my program we made chit chat about Halloween. Among all the "I'm gonna be this" "I'm gonna be thats" one kid said "I'm going to be a pig!" and that kid was so happy. It really put it in perspective. He was so happy about it. Yes Miss Piggy is a fun character I really liked her as a kid. The little kid the day before didn't mean anything by it but I think I was just having a sensitive day.

    Things will work out eventually. I'll be a great Miss Piggy and kids like me.

    1990 days ago
    Sister! You can do it! People are weirdos. Kids don't always have the basic parenting that says we don't bother other people like that. You're doing great! :) I'm very proud of you!
    Keep up the great work!
    How is no sugar going?

    1990 days ago
    Your working so hard to make changes (that aren't happening fast enough for you) that noone else sees yet. Don't let these words get to you in a negative way. Use them instead!! Use them as motivation to push you through to the next level. I'm sure these individuals are not trying to be mean to you. You are way to sweet to be mean to!! Seriously!!

    I love how the little boy ended. If he was between 4-9, he probably didn't know how to show affection to you very well. Like pulling the girls hair to show her you like her type thing....

    Ms. Piggy is a wonderful character. She is strong. She is well spoken and heard. She is sexy! That is what I think of Ms. Piggy. And your right, you would do her proud by playing her!!

    Stay positive my friend!! Strong Mind, Strong Body, Stay the Course!
    1991 days ago
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