Wednesday, October 03, 2012
I know its crazy but I just noticed that I have to lose more then 100lb I can not believe i have let myself get into this shape. I am very thankful I got the lapband when i did. I would be in terrible shape right now if I had not.But sometimes the day to day of trying to lose weight you forget how much you have acheived. I have lost 50lb thats nothing to snear out .
I often forget to look back and say wow and not focus so much on gee you still have a long way to go. my goal weight is 160 that still puts me at a heavy amount for my height of 5'5" but I was that weight a long time and I was pretty happy with it.
I have mini goals my first was to get under 250 got that one down.
2nd get under 200
3rd to 180
and finnaly 160 anything after that I will decide on when I get there.
Even though I have lost 50lb I dont feel like I have. I dont really see it my clothes do fit different but I dont think my body really looks different. maybe a little here and there. I guess that is one of the downfalls of being so big it takes a lot before you can see it. anyone else and 50lbs would be a big deal heck 10lb on some people make a big difference. I almost I wish I could have taken a body picture everyday just to see If I could spot the changes. I couldnt see them today and I was really checking myself out while getting ready for work. I kinda worry that at 200 it will be the same thing that until i get to 180 i will still just look fat. One good thing came from all this thinking I was dying for a candybar this killed that craving. I dont want to add any extra calories I really want to reach my goal.
On to some better news Im going to pick up a treadmil tomorrow. It was my moms she used it very little and its a really nice one. I have liked the treadmill idea because you can set it up in front of the tv and you dont realize how long you have been on it. I have a bunch of new movies I havent watched so this will be a good incentive to watch them. Plus it still will be like interacting with the kids they can be watching the movies with me. Just have to get compete with william to get on it lol.
I have decided when I get up in the morning with rebekah to not try and go back to bed or lie down and rest. seems like when I do this because I dont even get a hour nap usually its like 15 minutes I feel worse then I did before I tried to rest. so far its been going ok. I'm not as tired as I thought I would be. but I still have 2 1/2 hours to go.
With getting up and staying up I got the kitchen walls painted green. first i was worried the color was not dark enough but as it dried it got better. But right off the dark wood molding was looking terrible. I told william it has to go. the brown and green looks so bad together it is hard to focus on the white and green parts to see if you like it. after awhile we decided we do like it but we need to get the white molding and base boards on. Not sure when that will get done since that is not something I do and will rely on him getting it done. But I will take the brown down and in the meantime I can get some of my kitchen back by putting stuff in the cabinets. And putting the bead board up for a backsplash will take no time. Ive been taking before and after pics but they look bad with everything sitting out all you can see is a mess.