Wednesday, October 03, 2012
1 pound gone in October! I so dreaded this weigh in because the two weeks prior were just not good for me. I also knew that last year September was a bad month stress, scale and weightwise. BUT...despite those facts, i managed to lose a pound. I have not owned it just yet because I still feel bloated and stressed BUT... When I looked back at my log on my Sparkpage I found that I am 18lbs less than the same time last year. WHAT!?!? Oh the mind can be so cruel sometimes. Why do we allow these thoughts and premises? I can preach and preach and preach the positives to anyone who will listen but walking the walk is sooooo much harder. I read and read and read how to combat these emotional eating issues and just when I think I am getting it, things backfire. As I said in another blog, I am fighting the battles. Some I win and others I don't. I just disappoint myself when I actually win but don't feel like a winner...perfectionism at its worse? But I will not lose heart. I will keep at it...a healthy life can only bring eventual happiness. I DO NOT want to ever go back to that unhealthy, unhappy place of being fat. I will do this. I can do this. I have done this. I am doing this!