Wednesday, October 03, 2012
My goals for October are pretty simple.
1. Lose some weight
2. Exercise every day, even if it is only for 10 minutes
3. Give myself 10 minutes when a craving hits to see if I really NEED to have it
4. Track all of my food, no matter how much I eat
Over the past week I have been really trying to work out in my head why I just can't seem to get a handle on this weight loss thing. I lose 5, I gain 5, and then I lose it again. I swear I have lost thousands of pounds in my lifetime and still need to lose the same amount as when I started.
So here are some things that I have figured out...
1. The MOMENT I tell myself that I can't have something, I WILL crave it more than anything else. So, no more limiting things or even speaking about it. Even the thoughts can throw me into a feeding frenzy. There is no reason to remove things from my choices, but I need to make sure they are as important as the calories they contain. I must be willing to go over my calorie goals for the day to eat it because I will not cut back on healthy food because I want a cookie.
2. Alternatives do not always work. I love bread, have always loved it and probably always will. Each morning I like to have a bagel with Sunbutter, calorie wise it is quite a bit at 490 calories. So, I took the time to find alternatives to the bagel and found that english muffins are only 220 calories for two of them. With the sunbutter it comes out to 420, BUT all day I feel like I deprived myself of the bagel and then I make choices that are probably not the best. And this stress is caused by SEVENTY calories. That's right, a feeding frenzy ensues because I tried to save 70 calories for breakfast. I guess the decision is easy... Goodbye english muffins, HELLO bagels.
3. I had not really thought about it until this month, but I still have PMS cravings. I had a hysterectomy 4 years ago and because I don't really have to worry about that time of the month anymore it never occurred to me that the symptoms of a menstrual cycle would still be present. I get depressed, I retain water, and I crave sweets like crazy. So for the first time in years, I am marking my calendar so that I am ready next month. I have to make sure I am prepared with a plan of action and ways to talk myself down from the binging ledge. Spending 4 days eating til my heart's content and killing all of the progress I made in the 26 other days is ridiculous. I think starting small will help... no going to the store during those days unless absolutely necessary because donuts live in the store and making sure there are no sweets in the house, etc.
I know that as I continue on this journey I will find MANY other things that hinder the process, but I also know that I will always find ways to deal with them.