Wednesday, October 03, 2012
When I think how totally hopeless I felt about 12 days ago, I cant believe it. I have started a journal to record all I eat and how I feel for that day and my mood when I eat etc. I find that slowly there emerged a pattern of feeling bored and tired in the early evening and late at nght after dinner resulting in a carb fest.
To counter this I have decided to cook double portions each night and when I come home from work I just eat my supper and start cooking for the next two nights.I think it is presently keeping me sane.I am also making an effort to sleep by 10pm to avoid late night snacking. It is such a struggle .I am not a sleeper at all.
I think I can do this ,slowly but surely I am building my confidence to believe I am able to lose the weight. I am scared to be slim truth be told ,I cannot seem to picture my self at my 60kg goal weight and I dont want to .If I dwell on that then the journey seems insurmountable.so I am keeping myself in the here and now.Keeping things simple is what I need to do.