Well I've been meaning to tell you all about my horrible week..... and just got up enough energy to do so? That's my problem... "NO ENERGY"... for "life"...period!!!
Don't care about anything for the last week or so. I'm trying to figure it out as to why but ..???
Yesterday, I "tried" to get out and about... Went to the library, bank, bought me a new Schwinn "Cruiser" bicycle (pink and white), treated myself to lunch at Taco bell (bean burrito and a tostada), went to see my Mom (ugh, brings me down every time) and then went to a movie (bad because movie was good, but had medium popcorn w/butter "crap" and small drink) and came home. So it was a really "eventful" day for me!!
The outcome of yesterday was,
1. I need to stop doing my mother's wash weekly and only going to see her once a week instead of two. I have been doing it for one year straight and cannot handle the stress she puts on my life any longer. I feel it's my younger brother's turn to take over, so the phone call will be made today to him...send prayers please.
2. My cute pink and white bike, I brought home in a box, because I "Can" put things together, has a big hole in the top of the box showing me a bent and scuffed fender, so now I will have to put it back in the car myself, some how, and take it back... UGH UGH UGH!
The way that I'm feelin.. topped off with things like the above two just keep the "funk" fed!
This is not the norm for me and I need to snap out of it...
Tomorrow I have planned a great day: Going to Modesto, 30 min away and 1. Getting my feet done by my niece (massage, reflexology)... yumm..... 2. going to visit son #1 and my two grandkids, Olivia, 2 1/2 and Elijah, 10 mo (he's just started walking ;o) and 3. going to visit son #2 with my most recent grandbaby, Jackson, 7 mo old, and my wonderful daughter-in-law is cooking dinner for me and then coming home and probably sleep like a baby.
So anyway, enough of my problems, but one more thing, I'm going to be calling for my free 10 appointments through my insurance, for some therapy from a good Christian therapist. I did this many years ago for my last marriage and I loved it....so we'll see about this avenue possibly helping.
I am truly an emotional eater and need to get down to the problems and fix them. I do not want to start taking any more meds, which I know my doctor would give me.... Just "fix" the problem.
OK... now I'm done for this session.... and to all my "spark" helpers, therapist, etc.... I thank you in advance for your advice. All advice is welcomed.