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Therapists needed...just can't find the "fight" in me???

Wednesday, October 03, 2012

Well I've been meaning to tell you all about my horrible week..... and just got up enough energy to do so? That's my problem... "NO ENERGY"... for "life"...period!!!
Don't care about anything for the last week or so. I'm trying to figure it out as to why but ..???
Yesterday, I "tried" to get out and about... Went to the library, bank, bought me a new Schwinn "Cruiser" bicycle (pink and white), treated myself to lunch at Taco bell (bean burrito and a tostada), went to see my Mom (ugh, brings me down every time) and then went to a movie (bad because movie was good, but had medium popcorn w/butter "crap" and small drink) and came home. So it was a really "eventful" day for me!!
The outcome of yesterday was,
1. I need to stop doing my mother's wash weekly and only going to see her once a week instead of two. I have been doing it for one year straight and cannot handle the stress she puts on my life any longer. I feel it's my younger brother's turn to take over, so the phone call will be made today to him...send prayers please.
2. My cute pink and white bike, I brought home in a box, because I "Can" put things together, has a big hole in the top of the box showing me a bent and scuffed fender, so now I will have to put it back in the car myself, some how, and take it back... UGH UGH UGH!
The way that I'm feelin.. topped off with things like the above two just keep the "funk" fed!
This is not the norm for me and I need to snap out of it...
Tomorrow I have planned a great day: Going to Modesto, 30 min away and 1. Getting my feet done by my niece (massage, reflexology)... yumm..... 2. going to visit son #1 and my two grandkids, Olivia, 2 1/2 and Elijah, 10 mo (he's just started walking ;o) and 3. going to visit son #2 with my most recent grandbaby, Jackson, 7 mo old, and my wonderful daughter-in-law is cooking dinner for me and then coming home and probably sleep like a baby.

So anyway, enough of my problems, but one more thing, I'm going to be calling for my free 10 appointments through my insurance, for some therapy from a good Christian therapist. I did this many years ago for my last marriage and I loved we'll see about this avenue possibly helping.

I am truly an emotional eater and need to get down to the problems and fix them. I do not want to start taking any more meds, which I know my doctor would give me.... Just "fix" the problem.

OK... now I'm done for this session.... and to all my "spark" helpers, therapist, etc.... I thank you in advance for your advice. All advice is welcomed.

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Member Comments About This Blog Post:
CHANGEISGOOD 10/4/2012 6:55PM

    I am praying for you, my friend. You are not alone. You have the right plan and both visiting with family and seeing a therapist are going to be great steps to take. I hope your call to your brother helped. I understand how hard it is to take care of Mom alone... Do you and your brother both live near your mom? Is there any way you and your brother could work together to hire someone to "visit" mom once a week? Sometimes it helps to have someone else check in, maybe make a meal, play a game, do some light housework... Just a thought. Hang in there and keep us posted.
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123ELAINE456 10/4/2012 7:45AM

  Try the Therapist. That will help. Do things that you enjoy doing. Take walks. Enjoy your children and grand kids. Try to have fun with them. God Bless You and Have a Wonderful Week. Try to Enjoy Your Day. Take Care. Go for bike rides.

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SQUIRLY13 10/4/2012 12:09AM

    Cheer up! Tomorrow is a new day. I think you are on the right track. I think many of us fall into that "funk" now and then, I know I have been there lately, myself. The important thing is that you recognize some issues, and have some plans to deal with them. Keep pushing along. You really are an upbeat person, normally. You can get through this, and come out shining....

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And, enjoy your day tomorrow. Have lots of fun with those grandbabies!!

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HAPINANA 10/3/2012 10:30PM

    thanks for all your comments ladies....much needed! I will get through this, but this one's a doozy! Spark emoticon
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JUDY106 10/3/2012 10:06PM

    You have awareness and that is so important. I think you are thinking very well about your situation and seem to be doing a lot of things keep it from any worst or to improve it. Just make sure you carry through with what you plan to do . Sounds great. Well, I will throw this out there. I had to realize that my life is not all happiness for all the times nor should it be sadness all the time too. I would have the extremes of one or the other. So, I have to search for the middle of the road to be what I deal with for most of my life'd journey. Oh, well this just came to me while reading your blog. I really did help myself by excepting that I was causing some of this to happen to ME. I have done a lot of self improvement and still working very hard on myself. I can say things are a lot better. i hope you can do better too. It takes outside help sometimes to get us on that right track in order to help our self. I wish you the best in your effort for improvement. (HUGS)

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BEESPARKLE 10/3/2012 5:18PM

    Sorry you had a bad week. Forget about today as today you cannot bring back and in your case sweetie who would want too.

So to-morrow is a new dawn.

Get yourself some help is a good idea.


Be around people who are Positive.

God Bless!

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LINDAK25 10/3/2012 4:00PM

    Sorry you've had a bad week! It does sound like tomorrow will be much better. I hope your brother can help you. Being positive and being around positive people is so important! Therapy may be just what you need for right now. Hope you can find your mojo!

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