Tuesday, October 02, 2012
Why are we SO hard on ourselves? Why do we sometimes say horribly mean and sometimes mentally and emotionally abusive things to ourselves? Would we tolerate this from someone else? The sad thing is, I used to tolerate others treating me like this and even called some of them close friends. The world is hard enough on us, so why do we think we need to be so hard on ourselves too?
I have realized enough is enough! I will not accept myself being so mean to myself anymore! I didn’t reach this point overnight, as many are aware of. A few weeks ago I “only” lost 0.8 pounds, but instead of being frustrated about this I decided to celebrate that loss. 0.8 pounds lost is a positive step towards reaching my goals. Also, I am not just a number on a scale!! There is so much more to this journey. Fitting into smaller and smaller clothing, seeing more and more muscle tone and definition, learning to love working out, learning to love myself….. Yesterday I noticed I have an increase in excess skin on my stomach but I am quite okay with this actually. If I would have noticed it a few months ago I know I would have been upset about it…. But I so will take the excess skin any day than being obese again. I do not want to face the same health problems that the rest of my immediate family is facing. They have high blood pressure problems, and now my dad, mom, and sister (she just got told this past Friday that she is on the verge of full blown type II diabetes) all three have type II diabetes…. Leaving me the only one w/o out it. This only reinforced the fact I am not a number!