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Feeling doubtful

Tuesday, October 02, 2012

I am wondering if I can do this. Why do I have such a strong desire to eat? I am feeling really hungry and not the least bit sleepy. Last night I only got an hour of sleep. As soon as I finally fell asleep my son woke up (with the sun). If I don't do this now then when will I ever do it. I have tried so many things. Most of them work, like counting calories, writing what I eat, exercising, banning TV, doing yoga and meditation. I have lost weight doing all of these things, but I always fall back into the habit of using food to fall asleep. I am great all day, but when I try to sleep I go crazy. I have white knuckled it and made it through a few nights, but then something stressful happens and I allow myself to eat and watch tv. I have tried hypnosis, tiring myself out, sleep music, sleeping pills (those only gave me night eating and munchies). Still the best thing I always want to do is turn on mindless tv and eat. I have tried saving calories for this specific reason, but that doesn't last long. Before I know it I am adding a little more cereal, then whole milk instead of fat free, then graduating to cookies and milk, just a few, but then that turns into whole packages. I keep trying. Every few months I start fresh and give it a go. That is where I am tonight. I am hoping that SP will be the thing that makes me stick to my plan. As I am typing there is such a strong voice and desire to go eat. This is awful. I am tired of fighting . I want to eat.....I am going to.

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JOHGLO2011 10/2/2012 9:11AM

    My best advice to you is to talk to yourself as you would to a good friend who needs encouraging. It is hard - I've been off and on diets my entire life. Somehow this time is different - I think it is because I talk to myself in a positive manner every day. The spoken word is very powerful, so put it to good use by talking to yourself right! Focus on the positive instead of the negative - do your best and good things will happen. Enjoy the journey! :)

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JUDYAMK 10/2/2012 8:12AM

    In your first few words on your blog you are already doubting your self emoticon TODAY you are starting fresh forget all about the yesterdays & about all the tomorrows to come it is TODAY you are working on, the before & afters always get us we think oh well I never made it before why try so hard. emoticon
one day at a time. We are all in this together, & we are all hear to encourage each other someone from all over the world is on this Spark any time day or night just post & start blogging reach out & someone will be there to encourage you on. I know you can do this throw that word doubt out of your vocabulary & say I can do this!!!! Take care & keep blogging to help & motivate the rest of us!!

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LOSIN_IT4GOOD 10/2/2012 2:25AM

    I hope by looking around spark, and finding others with the same struggles, you will be able to find some new ideas that can help. I work 3rd I know how important sleeping is!I wish I had some miracle words of wisdom for you...but all I can offer is to take things a step at a time and seek out help wherever you can. Good luck and keep searching until you find what does work for you.

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