Monday, October 01, 2012
No one said it would be easy, but they have said it would be worth it. I wonder if I have what it takes to make it. When times get tough, can I keep forging ahead or will I quit? Many times I have definitely quit. When I quit, I would continue to think about starting back. I would feel discouraged about how far I had to go. I have been ashamed and angry with myself for messing up and getting that much further away from my goals. My health and body have suffered for so long. My quality of life isn't what it should be. I cannot give up no matter how hard it seems. "You don't get what you wish for; you get what you work for." I don't know who said that, but it's so true.
I don't think I shared this here, but a couple of months ago (after waiting an entire year to decide) I finally made the decision to enclose the garage and convert it into a room. The conversion started near the beginning of August and was completed before the end of August. I had a full week or working out almost daily and started the next week off working out, and wouldn't you know...I got sick; the kind of sick where I could barely function. I got progressively worse although I was trying to convince myself that I was getting better. I wound up going to the doctor, and it was a pretty severe sinus infection. I also developed a horrendous cough that has been trying to kill me. I know it seems like I went off on a tangent here, but I brought all of that up to say that I felt a lot better, enough to where I felt that I had the strength to start back working out. After 11 days of not feeling well enough to work out, in the past I would have just given up. This time I've worked out nearly everyday since I've felt well enough to workout. I cannot afford to just quit on this journey, and I hope that anyone reading this realizes that you are worth it to actually complete the journey. I have to remind myself that I am worthy. I want to live a healthy and fulfilling life, and I AM WORTH IT!!!