Monday, October 01, 2012
Ugh, if only I could turn back time. My husband was off from work today and will also be off tomorrow so sometimes I allow myself to "cheat" on my diet those days. I never benefit from it in any way so while I'm thinking how great it feels at the moment; I immediately feel guilty afterwards. The whole day becomes a disaster because I allowed myself to cheat for "just this one day" once or twice a week.
I feel so disappointed in myself. I didn't even workout today. I'm glad I got a chance to spend time with my husband though. He works many hours during the week therefore I end up missing him immensely. But mostly, everything went wrong today....the puppy relieved herself in the house after being so good with that for months. I couldn't even sleep last night because the puppy wouldn't stop barking for most of the night. I was almost late to an appointment I had and of course I let it all out on my husband. The best part of today is that it's almost over. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
I know I'm only human and can't have perfect days everyday of the week but sometimes I forget that. I forget that noone's perfect and that everyone has their own struggles. Of course mine are always the worst that could possibly be imagined. LoL No, they aren't but it surely seems that way at times. I almost forget how fortunate I really am. I should take a minute to realize that instead of complaining about how imperfect my day actually was. I guess I can only put as much effort as I actually want to on a daily basis. It really is up to us what kind of day we're going to have. It's all about attitude and how you perceive things.
I don't give myself this pep talk before my day begins though. I kind of wait until I have the worst day ever in my eyes, of course-- then after that day is semi over-- I tell myself what I've pretty much known all along.
I remember when my brother used to live with us, he motivated himself everyday before it even started by having inspirational quotes that, he pretty much came up with himself, taped onto the mirrors in the bathroom. I think that's what got him through school. Having that pep talk with himself before the day even started. Not a bad idea.....
Well....it's 9pm so I'm going to sign off for a bit. Tomorrow's goal: Not to beat myself for what I did today but to start fresh tomorrow. To stick to my diet no matter what, and to exercise for 40 min (my usual time). I'm going to make tomorrow great and worth living for!