Monday, October 01, 2012
I haven't blogged for a while because I've been busy, suffering with some health issues and evaluating my fitness program and how I'm doing. After a long appointment with my doctor, I decided to stop tracking my food for a while and to work out a bit less and a bit differently. I won't go into detail but my joints are highly stressed and I've become too obsessed with exercise and weight loss which puts me in danger for an Anorexia relapse. So with the advice of my doc, backed up by my husband, I'm going to stop tracking my food and I'm not going to stress about getting 60 minutes of exercise each day. 30-45 minutes will be enough and won't be so hard on my joints.
I won't be completely gone from SP but I will be spending much less time here. I will still make being fit and healthy a priority but it can't be the number one thing in my life. I have a house and husband to care for, my animals and of course my job and other hobbies. I can't spend every waking minute on SP or worrying about my food, my weight, the number on the scale. Lately I've been obsessing and that has brought me very close to a relapse, something I can't afford to happen. Not only would my physical and medical health suffer, but also my marriage because my husband won't be so patient and understanding a second time around. So I've got to gain some perspective on this and I feel this is what is best for me at this time.
I will still be exercising but won't be blogging a whole lot, maybe once every week or two. I will still be following a few blogs but I will be behind so please don't think I'm ignoring you, my few special friends and you know who you are!
Good luck to you all and know that my thoughts are with you and you have my full support! I'll be seeing you, just not as often! Wish me well and take care of yourselves! I love my sparkfriends and that will NEVER change!
Member Comments About This Blog Post
Awwww Kelly, I'm just now seeing this. Wow girl, I agree wholeheartedly, you have to take care of yourself. That is the most important. If you're not healthy, that affects everyone and if we are, well, that does too, but in a good way! Good luck to you, Buddy, and I hope you get feeling better and better. I agree, it's not very healthy at all, to obsess about SP, food tracking, exercise, etc. It can get over-done. I can feel that in my own bones, but I can't perceive that I would ever get itty bitty skinny. That doesn't seem to be in MY bones, but who knows. Take care sweetie and have good, good warmy feeling days!
1921 days ago
I completely understand. You have to put your family , health, and home life first.
Sometime sparkpeople can become a drain. I have cut back on blogging as well and am going to cut back on other spark related activities. Just promise me you won't leave and never come back. I would really miss you!!
1938 days ago
Good for you!! This is, obviously, a very important and necessary decision for you. You need to structure your life to fit your needs. Obsessing over tracking food and hours of exercise is not a healthy way to live and, I believe, Spark is about healthy living more than losing weight. I admire your honesty and hope you will keep in touch.
1938 days ago
Oh Kelly, you know I understand. I am glad to hear you are listening to the doc. That is huge!!! Also know how difficult that can be. As you know the bulimia and other ED tendencies are always an issue for me and find myself walking a fine line. It was something that I really struggled with when I first signed up. Wasn't sure about venturing into this territory with my history. It has not been easy tracking cals and minutes without going into that dangerous arena of triggers and I know you understand that too. I am really proud of you for doing this babe. Makes me tear up. I wish for that strength when I find myself getting sucked in.
Love you and wish you the best. You can do it! You are worth it!!! I'm here for you if you ever need to chat. Drop me an email:)
1938 days ago
With the help of your doc, it is always best to do what's right for you! Don't stress about it, especially if you're experiencing joint problems and the possibility that excessive focus on one element of your life becomes problematic or compulsive. Wishing you the best towards a well rounded and fulfilling life!
1938 days ago
So glad you have decided to stop worrying so much about getting an hour of exercise. I am glad Gunn is supporting the Doctor's advice. You worry about you and staying healthy....healthy does not mean lose weight it is about being and feeling good about you. Walk your dog - go for hikes - eat healthy food...Please don't stress
1939 days ago
I like comment about changing your goals and maybe you can keep on blogging to help other people on SP who suffer from anorexia. You could show them other goals to focus on besides food and exercise like time with husband and family, distorted thought patterns (I am assuming you covered that in your previous treatment), healthy recipes for those who need to gain a few pounds. Just an idea and one that you would want to talk to your doctor first.
Good luck on your journey.
1939 days ago
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