Monday, October 01, 2012
It's fall break for the kids so now I have all 3. That makes it impossible to go on my long walks. I can only exercise during the day through the week. I have my dvd so I'll do that during nap time, but it's just not as satisfying. And I'm still sick. I have a raging headache and my nose is like a faucet. This does not bode well.
I know I COULD give myself a break seeing as those two things are out of my control but my mind revolts. Am I making excuses? I'm only at the beginning of my journey (second beginning, but what else do I call it?) and I'm afraid that if I cut myself some slack for these two weeks of the break I will continue to do so after it has ended.
I don't want to get off track. I want to make this work. If I had someone to watch them/sit with them while they sleep I would feel so much better. The way my boys are, though, I would wake them up during the dvd. Which is why I can't be as affective if they're up. I have to stop more than once making it almost impossible to keep my heart rate up. Just so far in writing this I've had to get up twice. *Sigh*
I didn't factor fall break into my restarting plans. Not that it would've changed anything. I have to pounce once an idea gets in my head or I'll procrastinate. I just wish my kids were a little more biddable. But the younger one (just turned 3 on the 10th) is always into something. I mean always. And this is completely gross, trust me like oh my god don't tell me that gross, but to give you an idea of what I'm talking about here goes. One of the reasons I just had to get up was because J, the youngest just.drank.his.own.pee. Yes, you heard me right. See what I was saying.
My middle child who is 4 is a whiney little thing. All.the.time too. My daughter is usually not a huge problem, but she has "issues". Not a disability or anything like that. Just emotional damage from her brother dying when she was 4, and she has ADHD on top of that. So sometimes she's great, sometimes she's overwhelming. *Sigh* again.
Yes, I share too much. But I have no where else to vent. Stress eating is one of my main problems. Along with bored eating. And loving food.
Anyway, I'm just worried. I think I will try my best and if I come up short I'll remind myself that I tried and cannot help what life throws at me. Just watch my food intake and do at least 1 15 min mile on my dvd. More if I can. It's better than nothing, right?