Monday, October 01, 2012
I love new beginnings, don't you?!!
It doesnt matter what choices you have made in the past, good or bad. What matters is from this day forward. We can apply that to weight loss or to life in general.
Summer was slow going in the weight loss department, but still steady so I am pleased. I have maintained as I go, so that is encouraging. I know I can do this for a lifetime.
Today, I feel different. My time spent with my horse always does that for me. I just feel so energized!
I have focused pretty much solely on my weight loss since the beginning of the year. As I gain more strength, both physical and inner, and as I gain more confidence, I always find myself somewhat internally in turmoil, thinking about what I am suppose to do with the rest of my life. I feel my greatest accomplishment is my children, my gift to the world. However now that they are grown and mostly gone, I feel like there is something more I am suppose to do, something greater than myself.
So I have made the turn at the crossroad. I have made some of the decisions I needed to make in regards to this, so that is like a huge weight lifted. Now I just have to get on the Make it Happen train.
I am also super excited because today, I am going to start implementing T-Tapp. I have ordered my book and can't wait to read it. Until then, I will check out the you-tubes. I have faithfully been following my Tabata schedule on my elliptical and I think that is really helping.
I just feel.... I dont even know the word. Freedom maybe? I have focused for so long on the mechanics of weight loss. How the body works. How the macronutrients work. The science behind it all. I have learned that so much of what we thought we knew, is not totally accurate. There is so much Conventional Wisdom to weight loss that is just not the way it really is. And I have learned that the science is not just for weight loss, but for overall health & longevity. And I may learn that what I think I know today, there might be new science and studies out tomorrow. And that is okay. I want to embrace the new information rather than shrug it off as baloney. I want to research the science and then form my own opinion rather than just go along with what we were always taught and thought we knew.
I have also learned that it is very individual, results do vary, there is no one size fits all. And I have learned that when you discuss these things, it is almost as contraversial as discussing politics or religion. So I find myself reigning it back in sometimes, biting my tongue. Like yesterday while riding, I mentioned to my friend that I was Intermittant Fasting and hadnt eaten since supper the night before, (and it was going on 2pm) and I thought she was going to fall off her horse. Questions like, I thought breakfast was the most important meal of the day, and what about starvation mode ... but when you try to explain the science & why it works & the steps necessary to get there, their eyes just glaze over and it is like I have sprouted horns or something. Sometimes it just isn't worth trying to explain a myth to someone & the science behind the reality, but yet I want them to have every advantage, so it is a fine line. Sometimes it is just easier to not talk about it. Not everyone is ready to receive the information with an open mind. Many ppl have blinders on. They have heard and always taught that this is the way it is, therefore they are just not open to new information. And that is okay. I will just keep learning as much as I can for my own health and hopefully lead by example.
But anyways, the freedom that I feel, I have a good grasp on what I need to do for weight loss, so I am going to try not to stress it so much, and turn my focus towards meaningful work and not be so anal about the science of my weight loss. I don't know that I am explaining that very well. I dont know if obsessed is the word. Perhaps. I am going to not be so pre-occuppied with weight loss that I forget about the other things I need to be doing. I have to find the balance. I have lost over 60 pounds and while that is great, that is in the past. I have to look to the next 60 and implement what I need to do in order to accomplish that goal along with the balance of the other things I need to be accomplishing.
So, it is a new day. It's a new week. It's a new month. It's a new Season. And so begins the new me!! Time to get cracking!!
Have a fantastic rest of the day my friends!!!