Sunday, September 30, 2012
I knew that going back to work teaching anew school year would bring added stress which for me means emotional eating. Big changes in my job have just compounded that problem. As much as I tried to prepare myself I am still overwhelmed. Looking back to last year, September was not a good time with the scales. I do my monthly weigh in in a few days and am dreading it. I Tell myself I will be happy with any loss and even content with maintenance but when I think about how hard I have struggled I think I deserve more. I am so emotional about this. I do really good several days, add a few extra cals a few days, then have a breakdown over a weekend....exercise is consistent 3-5 days with some weks with 5 and other 3. But then I am just not pushing as hard as I used to. I rational and slip into complacency so easily. I have lost 47 lbs gaining and losing 14 of those for almost a year and 5 months. I have not hit goal - 7 lbs to go. One day, I think, "I've got this" then a few days later I think, " you thought you had this!" I know stress, mental fatigue, and hormones are the problem. I just haven't figured out how I am going to manage them. My steam is running lowbut my heart says, "do you want this bad enough."