I've lost all since of reality.
Saturday, September 29, 2012
I just moved out here to Washington, and leaving my family behind was the biggest mistake ever. I did everything with them. I even still lived with my parents because it was a comfort. When my parents left at the airport I lost it. I cried in the car on the way to my house. I tried cleaning to keep my mind off of things, but that didn't work. (Let me tell you that cleaning up after 3 guys is one tough job). I tried watching some comedy movies, but that only made things worse. I cried going to sleep, and every time I woke up I cried then. This is the worst decision I have ever made, and I had to learn that on my own. Yes, I did move out here to be closer to my best friend and to experience something new, but in all reality I just want to be back with my family.
Life sucks. Driving all the way out here was a waste. I just want to go home. I can't stay here anymore. The anxiety of all of this has been the worst I've ever had. I feel bad for making my parents waste a week to drive me out here, but I'm just ready to pack my things and go back home. I think that trying to move out on my own so far away was a big mistake. All i can say is that I tried. I think sticking closer to home will help me gain more independence while still being close to family. I'm trying not to cry while typing this. I guess i am just so confused with life. I thought this was going to be the best thing ever, but it's not that it was cracked up to be.