Saturday, September 29, 2012
It's time to make a very tough decision. I'm working on overcoming a huge fear of water and I've reached a difficult point. I can now get in the water without breaking out in hives. I can do an ugly backstroke and an even uglier breaststroke as long as my head stays above water. I can even put my head under water as long as I'm holding my nose (I have goggles on since I wear contacts).
I still experience panic if I get water in my nose or mouth. It's not even that I swallow any of the water - it's just the taste/smell/feel of water in my nose or mouth. My trainer has even offered to get into the water with me to help me. I have trained with him for a long time and he thinks that keeping eye contact with him as I do it will help me overcome this latest hurdle. I do have confidence that he won't let me drown and this type of repeated exposure to a tough situation has helped me work through things in the past.
My decision - do I accept that this is as far as I can go or do I try to push past this fear? I'm so proud of myself for getting in the water and even find at times during the backstroke that I ENJOY the feeling of gliding through the water.