I know I whine about focus and always off track and messing stuff up. I really should enlist the help of my husband more. He does try to keep me on track, but he doesn't help sometimes when he wants sweeties. But i have my own issues with that.
I am up to 219 right now. Very miserable and disappointing in myself. I do know Oreos do have some fault with that number. I really should address my sweet tooth issues. I will definitely be visiting the Sugar addiction boards starting TODAY! At least I haven't been drinking soda the last couple of weeks. I swear I'm getting wider
I've been sneaking fruit and veggies in this week more though. And I have bought both the Bootcamp DVD from SparkPeople and the cookbook! I am proud to say that I have already made ONE recipe from the cookbook. I made the three cheese macaroni... and it was yummy!
(I was really sick of having potatoes with dinner. hehe.. sorry honey!) I look forward to more recipes. I do have the recipe app for sparkpeople on my ipad. I use that frequently! Lots of good stuff in there. I have also signed up for SparkCoach too. So I am seeking guidance and hopefully will get better. I had a rather disappointing day yesterday, where I ate two packages of Oreos
now the packages of cookies here are much much smaller than those of the states.. think about 2/3 of an American package... STILL a lot of cookies but just so...
So as of today, I am on "Day 5" of the 28 day bootcamp dvd. I have had one little package of M&M peanuts... but overall I have been better today. I did the elliptical today as well. I had my blood tests drawn today. So hopefully next week, I will hear back from the doc about Thryoid and Diabetes testing. I really hate fasting tests! part of me hopes there's something wrong with me... it would explain why I am so out of whack. Another hopes i don't have anything wrong with me, because I don't want to deal with the NHS doctors any more than absolutely necessary!
My Chiropractor gave me a number for a Personal Trainer. I think that might be my last hope, if there is nothing wrong with me, medically. I know my mental issues. I have been going over in my mind how I did all the weight loss and controlled eating and sugar intake so well before. Maybe because I had a different focus and life was just different back then in some way that let me. I have learned over the years that I really can't have some items in the house or within reach... So I should take the rest of my oreo stash and toss it out! (I have two more left... I don't want them today. so I think i'm doing well!!) My Mother-In-Law often brings home junky food. Thankfully, I have found I don't really care for a lot of the British Chocolate cake things. I still prefer my baking methods and american styled things. (Hence maybe why i keep eating oreos?)
So My goals this weekend is to keep working out! Get my homework done! I have a good chunk due on my Project for my Crypto class due this weekend... *sigh* but at least my other paper is pretty much done for my other class. I will clean that up sunday I think. I also want to try to do Pilates tomorrow or sunday, to work my muscles differently. I haven't been keeping up with that very much lately, and I really should to keep the strength building in my back and bottom so my back and headaches will keep getting better. I did find a yoga class up in town but I haven't had a chance to go up there yet. I will try to get up there this week (thursday) and try it. My other goal is to contact the Personal Trainer. At least for a consultation and she does classes in my little town. So I might try her class too. I will try to document it here better.
So today has been better than yesterday and I hope this weekend will be a better one for me, in my eating and activity. Unfortunately school will trump most activity this weekend, but I will do my best to get a break in to do something fun and active with my husband.