Thursday, September 27, 2012
It all began when i was in my 12th grade where i was just climbing down a flight of stairs and BAAM!!! I had a nasty fall ,I twisted my ankle pretty hard.I visited a GP immediately and i was put in a cast for 3 weeks.Since it was a crucial year at school the authorities were very rigid about medical leave,I had to start school with an unhealed ankle.There begins my struggle--The school had no elevators ,so i had to climb up 3 floors everyday with a huge bag on my shoulders .With constant trauma to my ankles it led to referral pains on my back ,neck .At one point of time
i began having whole body pains(excruciating)and i was bed ridden .I couldn't attend my school regularly.My teachers stared pressurizing me into coming despite giving them a detail picture of my health condition.I had another fall because my ankle was so weak ,it wasn't strong enough to bear such strain. Everything factored in, led to further deterioration in my health I could hardly move.E very doctor suggested my problem was psychological and not physical,none believed me,constantly visiting doctors put a huge toll on my mental state too-the pain ,lack of teachers support,no treatment.I was in a right state then.A family friend of ours suggested a yoga instructor who treated chronic back patients.She started giving me massages everyday which helped me get through the day.I would be in constant agony.My doctor visits continued.I din't get an answer, still waiting.....I gave my final exams with a lot of struggle ,but i couldn't miss them either as they were crucial.I was unable to sit through my exams still I was iron willed and saw it till the end.After my exams i was supposed to start preparing for my Chartered Accountancy exams ,i wouldn't even getup from my bed let alone attend classes.Family and friends would suggest doctors , i would diligently consult them to no vain.I had to wait out for six months by then my pain had come down to a point where i could go about my daily chores and even started my CA classes .I wasn't very regular too as my pain would aggravate with strain,so i took frequent breaks.I gave my exams too.My dad shifted bases to another city and i moved in with my mom and dad with the hope of finding a doctor who could solve my issue.My pain had come to a stage where i could go about my daily activities without glitches but any travel or sitting for a long while would end up in bed the next few days.Hence i didn't commit myself to any classes .My parents were very supportive ,they didn't mind me not continuing my studies .They believed it was just a temporary interlude and that i would spring back to my normal self in a short span.We all kept praying for a miracle.It was an everyday war with pain for me .Though my pain threshold is very high i would often be reduced to whimpers as i could no longer bear it .I stared getting very depressed and even thought of taking a plunge by ending my life.My mom was my support system,i would discuss every thought under the sun with her.She started counseling me why i shouldn't end my life and that i have a bright future ahead of me and so on...but when i was in pain i wouldn't listen to her whatsoever. i tried strangling myself once or twice but i didn't have the courage to do so.This phase was quiet a revelation for me,i could sit back and think how wrong i was in all ways before my fall.I was narrow minded and very shallow.So i started reforming myself in more ways than one.Since i was home i set about learning new things which i didn't get a chance to during my schooling,only then did i realize how trivial my thoughts and my goals in life were.I had a long wait of 2 years until i got a doctor who trusted me enough to diagnose and begin treatment.i'm still under treatment but i have a positive atitude towards life and i'm convinced i have great heights to go.Years of ill health has led me to pile on punds .i'm 40 pounds heavier so i have decided to embark on a journey to weight loss and a healthy life .This post is mainly for those who are suffering from crippling diseases,patience is the main ingredient to overcome this situation.I have decided to blog everyday about my exercise and diet and treatment.CHOP!!CHOP!!