Thursday, September 27, 2012
I seem to be on a roll (knock wood), been gettting to the gym, been eating right mostly, dropped a few pounds. I can feel the lethargy creeping in though, so I am using every tool I've got to keep me out of the abyss!
The scale has been doing the 3 down, 2 up thing that makes me crazy, I dont understand it. But as long as once a week I hit a lower number than before, that's what I'm going with.
My goal is get below that MOST SURPRISING number that I never thought I would pass in my entire life, by the time I go visit my daughter to cook Thanksgiving dinner and be there for the birth of my second grandchild!
Dont have all that much time left, and as of this morning's weigh in, I've got around 10 pounds to go.
I am battling several challenges at the same time.
I am unemployed, with no income at the moment. And if I dont find something soon, I am going to end up homeless.
I am getting food stamps, but eating healthy costs a little more and they dont make it to the end of the month. (I have 92 cents to make it to Oct 5 and the date on the milk is Oct 2)
So far, thanks to my sister and brother, I have been able to pay minimum amounts on bills and things and I have a vastly reduced rate at the Y. But every month is a question.
Very stressful life! High cortisol, hard to lose weight.
I have relaxation music galore on my mp3 player (a gift from a friend, god bless all friends!) and I have my workout playlists, but even going to the Y takes gas in the car, and there are times I have none of that, either.
I am paying a reduced fixed amount on my gas and electric, but ever mindful that if I dont make the 24 month mark, I owe all the back charges, so I am miserly with running lights, turning on the tv - my indulgence is the computer and npr ont the radio for a few hours a day. I would go crazy without them. That means careful use of my yoga and exercise dvds.
I have implored the spirit of every dead person I know to lend support and get me through this awful awful time in my life. I have prayed to all the gods, I have prayed to the One True God, I have implored Mary to intercede on my behalf. I am leaving no stone unturned.
The job market in my field is tighter than usual and skews very young, so I have several strikes against me right there. I am looking in every possible related field I can figure out! Holy Moly this is not easy. I need a SparkPeople for Job Seekers.
So now you know why I havent blogged in a while, having a hard time getting out of my own way to concentrate on this extremely important aspect of my life.