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Constant Vigilance!

Thursday, September 27, 2012

I feel like somebody needs to be shouting that at me all the time.

I'm at a weird place where I am both okay with my body weight (1-2 pounds above goal) and I am also so not okay with the repetitious binging and overeating.

One feeds directly into the other too, as the comfort I feel towards my weight provides my mind an allowance for additional calories.

I don't know quite what to do to be honest. I want to be okay with my body, but I don't want my allowances to slide because I am okay. That's not what my goal is about as I do know that if I start letting it slide up I won't have the willpower to stop it. One to two pounds will become three to four, three to four will become five to six. And so on.

The weight comes back with complacency and comfort. I want complacency and comfort, I think I deserve it, but I have to face the fact: I'm not ready for it. I can't trust myself with it quite yet, it's too important. It's too powerful. It's too potent.

I've read the possibility of weight regain drops 50% after 2 years. I'm only a few months away, 1/4 of a year to that number. I can do this, I can, I can, I can.

Time for some aerobic discomfort I think. I don't know where I'll find the time, but I have to.
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    This happens to me as well. I disagree with the statistics. I've been battling the weight re-gain for over a decade now. For me.... it hasn't gotten any easier to keep it off. In fact, it has only gotten more difficult to keep that 5 lbs. of maintenance weight off. Especially if I'm in a binge/restrict cycle.
    2000 days ago
  • BILL60
    Okay!! Let's get back on that nasty wagon and reach that almighty goal. You know how to do it so, "Do It".
    2000 days ago
  • BOB240
    Binging... possibly find a displacement activity.... most people use exercise but try something else - anything else that focusses you on anything other than hand to mouth action...
    2000 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/27/2012 12:44:15 PM
    I'm going to tell you from experience- it WILL get out of hand if you are binging:( What I've done (on and off for the last several years) is get down to goal (at least, the goal weight I had before I lowered it) and then I think I've got it all figured out. I start binging just on Fridays. I make up for it by lowering my calories the next day or exercising more. My weight doesn't change, or I'm withing 2-3 lbs over. No big deal. Then, before I know it I'm binging on Saturdays too. My weight doesn't change, but I still feel like I'm getting away with murder. There for awhile I was binging all weekend- Fri, Sat, and Sun. But my weight still remained the same because I would fast on Monday. It worked really well for awhile. And then BAM!!!! The 2 lbs turned to 5 lbs. Then the 5 lbs turned to 6 lbs, 7 lbs... at one point a couple weeks ago I was a whopping 8 lbs up!!! I had to do something. I put an end to it and have worked so hard to stop the binging because I was completely caught up in it and my little "tricks" stopped working (the make up- exercise, post binge calorie deficiency, and fast-days).
    Thankfully I'm now only 5 lbs up. But the bad thing is, it is taking FOREVER to get back down to where I was:( I'm only losing like 0.2 lbs at a time.

    It's not worth it. If you are binging, you can't take comfort in that. You're not seeing the binges on the scale yet, but it's inevitable that it will catch up with you eventually. Eating more calories than you're used to occasionally is one thing. But if the excessive eating leads to binging then you're only setting yourself up for weight gain.
    Sometimes weight creeps on the same way it comes off. You know how sometimes when you're in the process of losing weight you'll stall or lose only 0.1 or 0.2 lbs at a time and then BAM, the scale drops 3-4 lbs out of nowhere? Well, that's exactly how it creeps on sometimes too. You have to be really careful.
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    2000 days ago
  • KANOE10
    You are so close to reaching that 2 year mark and have done a gret job of keeping your loss off. Maintenance is hard and does require constant vigilance and exercise.
    I am one pound above my goal and am not comfortable. Like you say you cannot let it creep up and increase.

    You can do it. Great idea on getting exercise in!!!!1

    2000 days ago
    look at what you've done so far - WOW! - you can stick to it, you can! emoticon
    2000 days ago
    You have come far. A few pounds is just a note to you to back off a little from your eating and go for consistent working out. What can you do that would be FUN? Sounds like you need it! emoticon

    You are amazing and look great!
    2000 days ago
    I've been on hiatus because of having a case of bronchitis. Anyway, I'm starting to feel better. I couldn't sleep tonight so I got up to do some sparking. I know you can continue with your endeavor. I will periodically get on your web page and say YOU CAN KEEP WITH YOUR GOALS!!!!!!!!!

    2000 days ago
    Here I had thought that I was the only person on Earth that used additional aerobic exercise/conditioning to compensate additional nutritional intake!

    For myself, I do not sweat the sweet tooth splurges . . . as long as I do the aerobic sweating to alleviate or balance it all out by the end of the week.

    Best wishes for you and your own endeavors!
    2000 days ago
    OK, I'LL YELL AT YOU: YOU LOST 70 POUNDS!!!!! WOW! 1-2 pounds is nothing compared to that.
    2000 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/27/2012 2:29:34 AM
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