Tuesday, September 25, 2012
What am I doing? How did I get here? I'm a woman who finds herself lost. My husband of 17 years has decided he needs a break from me. It was a shock to me needless to say. I'm a mother of two teenage boys who think, at times, I'm the wort mom in the world and at other times I'm the best. I have parents and siblings that love me, but I hate unloading my problems on them. I have a few really good friends and several acquaintances. I probably have more friends than I let in, but I'm shy and hard to get to know.
I know why I don't know how I got here. I never paid attention to the journey. I never took time to look at the landscape. I never took time to breathe. I always made sure everyone around me was taken care of first. That they were more important. I would stay up late working on things for the boys or my husband and sacrifice the morning workout until I stopped doing it at all. I always make sure everyone eats well and just eat what I can find.
Now I'm finding myself and my happiness. I'm learning to put myself first. It is slow learning and I can feel when I am giving too much. I'm learning to be happy. Everyday is a new day and today is mine.