Feeling Lost

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

I am new here and truly don't quite know the in's and out's yet. I am using the food / exercise calculator..that is self explainatory. I had been a long time member of a different weight loss site (MyFitnessPal) It saved me. I am 40 yrs old and have lost 73 lbs. Never felt better. I love to exercise .. love to sweat and I felt sexy. Well that was suddenly had to go away the site and all my friends there when I realized I got caught up and addicted to the social aspect of the site. More or less I replaced the site with my real life. You know a mom of two .. a wife of 17 yrs... the passion has been long gone... and I got attention from the site and it made me feel alive. I was wanted / I was sexy / I felt sexy.. It was great. But I needed to end all of that to save my "real" life.. my marriage... so I did. Now I feel lost / sad and overwhelmed. I do worry about my fitness because I got the encouragement I needed to go on a daily basis... I guess you could say when I went to the gym I was not only working out just for me... it was for them.. the site.. and the people. I def. will not go back to where I was a year and a half ago.. but I feel some of the want to go is disappearing.. I have still kept up with going and getting in my workouts since leaving the site 2 weeks ago, but find myself forcing myself to go. Before I could not wait to get there to sweat. I am hoping in time that feeling will go away as I really do love my sweaty workouts. I also hope in time the feeling of abandoment and feeling lost will go away. So how strange a site for fitness / weight loss somehow almost ruined mine and I still miss it ? I do feel alittle nutso. I am getting help. I am determined to beat this.. watever this is.
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    The important thing, steelegirl is to remember why you are here. it's all about motivating yourself to do what needs to be done to stay healthy, and find value in that. You are on a site with like minded people who want to find motivation to lose weight and feel good. I hope you will find less of a social focus, and more of a fitness focus from spark people. I've been here for two weeks now, and that really seems to be what's going on here. Hang in there, girl, and remember you DO have friends here who will support your desires to be who you want to be.
    1905 days ago
  • GREASE31

    I felt like you do when i 1st joined this online club/team, but i soon made friends & started to feel happier in myself (see my sparkpage for relevant information), you will soon get the hang of this, take care. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1906 days ago
    I agree with twocans...any social site can be addicting when you are getting the attention and motivation you crave. Spark people community is my addiction. I come here for motivation and help and everything you described with myfitnesspal, which by the way I have used as well and never got the encouragement you did.
    Just try to balance life both ways. It's ok to get the encouragement you need, but spread that encouragement onto your family as well. Tell your husband you are so excited about working out, you'd like him to try it with you. Go for walks together, run a 5k together. You will find the balance, everything will work out.
    1906 days ago
    Hmm, interesting; I think ANY social site could do the same thing, take away from real life, but that's why we have to prioritize. I'm still very much in need of weight loss, but as one who is happily married to me favorite guy for 29 yrs, I would suggest you make your relationship TOP priority, and remember the things that brought you two together in the first place. My best wishes to you!
    1907 days ago
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