Tuesday, September 25, 2012
I am new here and truly don't quite know the in's and out's yet. I am using the food / exercise calculator..that is self explainatory. I had been a long time member of a different weight loss site (MyFitnessPal) It saved me. I am 40 yrs old and have lost 73 lbs. Never felt better. I love to exercise .. love to sweat and I felt sexy. Well that was suddenly had to go away the site and all my friends there when I realized I got caught up and addicted to the social aspect of the site. More or less I replaced the site with my real life. You know a mom of two .. a wife of 17 yrs... the passion has been long gone... and I got attention from the site and it made me feel alive. I was wanted / I was sexy / I felt sexy.. It was great. But I needed to end all of that to save my "real" life.. my marriage... so I did. Now I feel lost / sad and overwhelmed. I do worry about my fitness because I got the encouragement I needed to go on a daily basis... I guess you could say when I went to the gym I was not only working out just for me... it was for them.. the site.. and the people. I def. will not go back to where I was a year and a half ago.. but I feel some of the want to go is disappearing.. I have still kept up with going and getting in my workouts since leaving the site 2 weeks ago, but find myself forcing myself to go. Before I could not wait to get there to sweat. I am hoping in time that feeling will go away as I really do love my sweaty workouts. I also hope in time the feeling of abandoment and feeling lost will go away. So how strange a site for fitness / weight loss somehow almost ruined mine and I still miss it ? I do feel alittle nutso. I am getting help. I am determined to beat this.. watever this is.