Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Yom Kippur is a day of apology and atonement. G-d can only accept our prayers if we are at peace with our friends/neighbors and have no ill will towards others. We are told that we must ask forgiveness from others before we can stand before G-d and ask for forgiveness.
The one person I need to forgive is myself. I really screwed up this year and having a negative voice that says this is who you are is not helpful. I have been working on forgiving myself. It does not help to beat yourself up it is a waste of energy. I choose to forgive myself and get on with being imperfect and learning a lot about what I am capable of.
I also choose to let things go. It's not that I'm apathetic but life is too short to worry about something we can't change. We can not change other people's behavior only our attitude to their behavior. Sometimes, it's really not about us it's about what's going on in your partner's/kid's/parent's head at the moment you had the interaction. I find that the exercising has helped me learn to control my breathing and to sense when I am beginning to get agitated. I try to relax my breathing first to calm down. It does work but old habits die really really slowly.
Finally, I love this community and I hope that I have not hurt anyone with any of my comments, blogs etc. If I have please remember I didn't intend to hurt you.
Wishing you all a year in which you can learn to forgive yourself.