Not trusting yourself
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Someone gave me a good comment that verified something I felt and said and I felt good about it. But it hit me that I don't trust myself and my perceptions. Not really. There is a hesitation there. When I make steps towards asserting myself just in my thoughts and saying, I am going to ignore that person I am just not sure sometimes if that is the right thing to do.
Why, because I have spent too much time frozen not making a move in fear that I am doing something wrong or saying the wrong thing. This idea could be soul crushing and demoralizing. But I have actually DONE things. I have gone back to school for graduate school, I have lived in four states, I started consisten counseling, I have faced my sexual abuse. I have tried and failed at friendships, tried and failed at career choices and more is to come.
I can't sweat the small stuff. I am trying, living and moving forward.