Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Wow, I fell off the wagon again, as I tend to do. I'm back up to 180 pounds, although people tell me I look lighter than 180. I've still retained a lot of muscle from my swimming days, so I guess that's where a lot of the weight is sitting.
My gym surge obviously died out, but it's starting up again (I'll get to that momentarily). I had a really, incredibly fun summer meeting new people and sitting on the beach near my apartment in Venice, drinking cocktails, getting drunk, seeing friends, eating food. Normal summer life, but I packed on ten pounds. I still haven't shed the weight I gained from when I quit smoking (don't congratulate me -- I started up again). It's really embarrassing, but random [good-looking] men still tell me I'm beautiful. Aww.
I had a summer class that I dropped halfway through because the professor was boring, so I had my first real summer break after two years of non-stop schooling. It was much needed. I hit a wall during Spring 2012 and being able to relax and do nothing helped tear that wall down.
Fall 2012 started four weeks ago and now that I'm not working, I feel less stressed out about getting school work done.
I made a new male friend (just a friend, no progression), a Russian guy named "Maksim." He's pretty cool, fun to hang out with, and unlike anyone else I've met, but very much like me in terms of personality, sense of humor, taste in movies, and taste in music -- worst of all, A LOT like me in that we're both honest to a fault (can be both good and bad -- but at least communication flows very well). He told me, "You have a really cool personality and you're a funny chick... you have a VERY pretty face and beautiful long hair, but if you lost some weight, you'd be the complete package."
The strong, independent side of me feels a bit stupid admitting that something a guy (FRIEND) told me is the one thing that motivated me to get back into the gym and lose weight, but it's better than nothing. I'm turning 27 in November, which means I've got three years of my twenties left. I don't want to spend the remainder of my twenties being a fat, tired slob. These are the best years of my life and I don't want to waste them.
Between going to school, studying, and doing homework, it's difficult to find time to go to the gym. I spoke previously of my slight social anxiety, which is actually getting better. I'm doing things by myself in public now... getting groceries, going out with friends, running errands... things like that. So that fear of going to the gym alone is sloooowly going away, but it would still be awesome to have someone who is in a similar position to mine to go with. Unfortunately, on this side of Los Angeles (and at the fancy schmancy gym I go to), it's going to be hard to find someone who needs to lose as much weight as I do. Everyone in Santa Monica / Venice is like... super hard bodies... hahaha. Oh well. I just gotta work up the nerve to go alone.
Anyone have tips on what kind of work-outs I could do at the gym besides classes? I mean work-outs where I'm not going to look or feel stupid or self-conscious... also it has been a long time since I've worked out, so I want to slowly build up. Maybe cardio first, drop weight, then start strength training? I'll probably go at 9pm or at 5am.
That's pretty much been it. I'd like to check in here more often, so if it has been more than three days since I've written, would someone be so kind as to tap me on the shoulder and go "HEY! Write something!" ? ;-)