Monday, September 24, 2012
OK, you don't actually suck. Whoever is reading this is actually awesome, I am sure. But it is a rainy day and my mood is even darker this afternoon.
I am not a particularly emotional person. In fact, just hearing me speak is like listening to a female version of Ben Stein, without the belief in Creationism or the multimillion dollar advertisement deals. I am that monotone.
So when I have a day like today, I seem to let it all out all at once. I have done next to nothing but sit on my couch watching My 600 Lb Life streaming from YouTube while I cry like a teenage girl dumped at her prom. Seriously, it has been a pathetic day for me.
In all, today has just been craptastic. I woke up to my monthly visitor, which is fine except the first day is always miserable. I forced through my lethargy and got dressed to take my daughter to school. Then we went and got some breakfast, as we were in a hurry to eat something and get to the store.
Now, we only eat out maybe twice a month at this point. I am usually pretty good at ordering, but we never get breakfast. So I had no idea how to compensate for calories, and I didn't have my phone with me to check it out on the way.
I thought to myself, "Hey, Carls Jr is pretty bad with their lunch stuff but Daniel wants to go. So I will get a breakfast burrito...it has to be better than one of their sandwiches!"
Yeah, I don't know if that is true or not. But I do know that the breakfast burrito I had was 710 calories and 48g of fat.
So, that was a bad choice that made me a little edgy and guilty. I tried to compensate with the food I chose for the rest of the day, and I did alright. My calorie range is going to be fine, though I will have gone over my fat by 10 grams. There is just no way to avoid that, even though it is healthy fat for the rest of the day.
I have done most of my strength exercises, but like I said: I am very lethargic and sick today. It was all I could do to eat past my lack of appetite and keep my calories up thanks to SP bumping the amount again (I have been going over my weekly exercise so it adjusted accordingly). I am planning on doing some aerobics and a new SP video core workout.
On another note, I gotta stop watching these extreme weight loss shows. They just make me feel so depressed, even with the success of the people. Or maybe that is just my hormones talking.
Either way, tomorrow will be better and blah blah blah. Now, if you will excuse me, I am going to further neglect my mounting workload and watch a YouTube clip of sobbing woman while I contemplate the horrors of my own mass.