How I Got Fat

Me at my baby shower at my fattest I hope

One day we just wake up fat, don’t we? That has to be the answer. Some people think it’s a slow process that happens over years. I never had that luxury. I always just kind of woke up that way. Well maybe it took a few months, but it never took a matter of years.

I’m just your average ordinary fat girl, thin girl gone fat maybe. I was the dieting queen or princess. My first diet was at the age of 6. I was slightly chubby. My mom was a dieter so no matter what size I was as a kid; I always thought I needed to diet. That continued into my 20’s. I thought I had everything figured out when I was 27. I went to a place called Quick Weight Loss Center, where I ate chicken, 2 carbs and fruit every day for 10 long months and lost over 100 lbs. I was about 130 lbs at the time and a size 6-8. I thought I was sexy.
I kept the weight off for about 2 years. However, the snowball effect happened and I bounced up to 254 lbs again. I went back to Quick Weight Loss and got down to about 160lbs and a size 10/12. I stayed that size for a while and then one day I woke up pregnant and fat.
I had my baby July 20, 2010. She was beautiful and perfect. I thought I was happy. I had a wonderful husband and beautiful family and life was good. That was until I realized that I couldn’t even look in the mirror and that all those good things didn’t make me feel good about who I was or what I looked like.

When i started WW and Spark
I started Weight Watcher’s and Spark on January 17, 2011. I have lost almost 145 lbs I believe. People think I am an inspiration, intimidating, perfect, motivating. So pretty much good and bad. The problem is that most people on Spark only know the dedicated Chelle. They don’t know the closet eater that gained over 100lbs in 9 months. Yes, I was pregnant; but no, that’s not a good excuse.
Here is a look at what my day was like back then
4 Shipley donuts 2 cake; 2 filled 957 cal
Chocolate milk 226
Filet o fish 380 cal
Fries 380 cal
Water 0 haha
2 cookies 320 calories
Papa John’s pizza 750 cal
Cinnamon Sticks 560 cal
Add in M&M’s or another candy at 280 cal
And that was just a day for me
Total 3473

I do lots of running and insanity and Turbo fire now

I burn 670 calories an hour doing turbo fire. Which equals 5 hours or 5 hours of running or 6 hours of insanity.

People wonder how I haven’t had French fries in over 20 months or a doughnut in the same amount of time and the answer is easy.

It’s not worth it. My body works too hard for me to fill it with something that tastes good for 5 minutes. My body has worked too hard to lose 100lbs more than once. My body deserves me to treat it the same way I want people to treat me. Why would I abuse myself when I won’t allow anyone else to abuse me.

I am worth giving up 5 seconds of pleasure in order to finally be able to run a 9 minute mile.
If the food is worth it to you; that’s fine. But after all this time, it just isn’t for me.