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534 pounds to 305 pounds to somewhere inbetween....

Monday, September 24, 2012

Restarting is not as easy as one would have thought, I mean, I've done this before right? Just jump back into the pool and swim away no? No... My good habits have slipped away somewhat so getting back into a groove is tougher that I want it to be but hey! If I don't put on my big boy pants.. And unfortunately I mean that literally and figuratively this time around its not going to get done on its own, so away we go. I tried that wish into one hand and $hit into the other thing in an attempt to get some results but I just ended up with a stinky hand... so I suppose I will have to bust a$$ again to get where I need to be.

When I was 534 pounds I started off slow because I had to, there were no options other than slow and that’s what I did and eventually I dropped a total of 229 pounds at my greatest number. I am in the mindset of a guy that is 300 pounds and can ride 30 miles on his mountain bike in a couple of hours with no side effects besides a big $hit eatin' grin stuck to my face for the rest of the day when in reality I have no idea what my limits are currently as I have not ridden my bike since late July. I can tell you that I am not in the shape that I was when 534 was what I was carrying around but I don't think I am close to what I was June of 2011 either and finding a middle ground is proving to be a tad more difficult that I would have expected.

I know, I know... just do what ya can man! indeed this is how it will pan out I am sure but getting my 300 pound mind to understand that I am not there any more is the trick. It seems like I was just convincing myself that I was not 500 pounds any more and when I get a handle on that (which I believe is part of my problem but that’s for another post) I now have to realize that I have put on some significant weight in the last year or so.

The plan..

When I started off I would walk as far as I could daily, that distance was first measured in minutes, 10 minutes at a time at the pace of my then 2 and a half year old daughter, this pace increased to carrying her on my shoulders for the walk and eventually turned into 30 mile bike rides. I have begun doing my morning stretch routine again, holy hell am I tight! and as I type this there is a road crew outside my house finishing laying a new road, starting tomorrow morning (looks like the road work will be completed today) my walks will resume, this time with my new now almost 2 year old, and no not at her pace, she will ride in the jogging stroller. My intake has been slowly getting back to where it needs to be, I have started logging my intake daily once again and may start posting it on here again the next time I post, which hopefully will be tomorrow. I did keep one of my good habits and that’s drinking the green tea, I refuse to drink calories so I do still drink 1 gallon of green tea per day and it’s been that way since whenever I started that. I mentioned that I refuse to drink calories, that’s almost a whole truth because I have been drinking coffee in the am, I've quit that as of this morning switching it back to a cup of hot green tea instead.

As I type this post out I feel motivated to get my $hit back together and start pushing the scale down again, as I mentioned this restarting is almost as hard as the start, I have the knowledge in my belt this time around, I have a taste of what being a "normal" size is to hold onto and we're ready for round two.

All of the comments on the last post helped immensely! Reading some encouraging words, some tough opinions and a few emails from old friends was a really good kick in the a$$ so thanks for that.

I will attempt to make time to post as often as I can so please stop by again and comments/opinions are always welcome so don’t be shy... lord know I'm not.

Until then.....

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    It is so good to see a post from you again brother.

    1564 days ago
    start brewing a big bunch of green tea and store some in the fridge as iced tea, it's good cold too
    1581 days ago
    You know me, short and sweet....NOW this is a blog I want to read. What's up?? I am a day late, so have you gotten your walk in???
    1581 days ago
  • PSMITH3841
    BoyO...I decided to pass on a comment for the last blog.....everyone else said it all (that's what I get for going on vacation, I missed a chance on a good "a$$ chewing"!)...Really, come on, GET OFF YOUR BUTT!!!!!!! Put it back on your bike! You live in a beautiful area, fall is here, rig up something to peddle the new addition along. GET MOVING!!!! Your new plan is a definite start, get back into regular keeps you on the straight and know you don't want to fess up to the bad choices! So, Ok, you screwed up, now you need to unscrew it! Get busy! See you next time! emoticon
    1581 days ago
    I lost 30 and put it all back on in a few months. We're just going to have to suck it up and deal with going through the crappy first month of adjusting to living with a good diet and appropriate exercise again. The good thing is that we know it will work.

    Switching back to green tea exclusively might be just the thing you need to kickstart your program. Maybe having that cup in the morning sets the stage for getting it right the rest of the day.
    1582 days ago
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    1582 days ago
    We all have fallen off the wagon at times. I think it's great that you have caught yourself somewhere in the middle. Your plan is a good one for getting back to task. Good luck to you on your journey! emoticon
    1582 days ago
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    1582 days ago
    Welcome back!
    1582 days ago
    Good for you for showing sounds like you're taking those first baby steps!
    1582 days ago
    So glad you're back! You've always been such an inspiration but don't think that means you can't share your struggles. We're all human and we need to lean on each other from time to time.
    1582 days ago
    emoticon Couldn't find a slap in the face, but here's a great big ole kick in the rear! Now, you're gonna be just fine :)
    1582 days ago
    You made this amazing journey once. And now you have learned that the journey never stops. You don't reach the goal and are done. This will be a journey for the rest of your life, your are on a train to healthy lifestyle, to teach your daughter how to be healthy. Life is about 80/20, live your life 80% of the time in a sparkpeople way and when you have a 20% of indulgence it doesn't take you off path.
    1582 days ago
  • SHEILA1505
    Forgive yourself and move forward
    Do you have someone who can be your go-to Energy Buddy, to be accountable?
    I have been at goal weight and then lost the plot while trying to Maintain - what IS THAT?
    Anyway, my RL EB was here in July (after moving 1000miles away over a year ago) and we realised we need to check in weekly re exercise, eating healthily, honest weigh-ins etc .... and it IS working. Certainly not fast ... but working - it must - we meet again next week - 5 October! OMW ... we set a goal of 7.5percent of starting weight.

    Just a thought ...
    and for goodness sake - stop beating yourself up! Just take a deep breath, forgive yourself and use everything that you know, and that is available here, and elsewhere and get the job started again.


    1582 days ago
    Live today eating in calorie range and exercising 10minutes in intervals. Find the strength to think of yourself not as a man of a certain number of pounds, but as an active man with the opportunity to be healthy.
    1582 days ago
    Woohooo!!! aaaaaaaaand ladies and gentlemen - he's baaaa-aaack!!!!!
    1582 days ago
    a new beggining holds such great promise. try really hard not to think of yourself as a 500 pound man or a 300 plus man but a man who gets up everyday with a plan to be as healthy as he can be. I need to go back and read your other blogs i am glad you are back. emoticon emoticon
    1583 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon I know starting is hard. But like you said you have done it before and you have more knowledge about it this time around. emoticon on losing all that weight so far!!
    1583 days ago
    Am I WITH you on avoiding calories in my fluids! And heck we're ALL with you every step of the way!

    Go Tony GO! Can't wait to hear that you've gotten back on your bike! :-)

    1583 days ago
    Hey, I've been reading you for a while (since before the now 2-yr. old was born...) and it seems to me like in every blog you refer back to when you were 500+. Maybe it's time to stop looking back and start looking forward. And I mean this in the most endearing way. Let go of that past weight, live where you are today and move on from there.
    Do it, because you can.
    1583 days ago
    Go for it man, you can do it!
    1583 days ago
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