Sunday, September 23, 2012
What I have learned the most this week is that no matter the circumstances, no matter my mood, no matter my energy, I must go on. I must not quit. I am learning to take the long view. This is not a battle won in a day- it is a journey that will take time, and the day to day successes add up into habits of success.
I am getting used to the idea that I will make mistakes. I will get it wrong. I will get into situations where I'm not able to be as strict as I'd like. There will be days when I can't exercise, or eat chocolate, or feel depressed. I am human, and one screw up doesn't equal failure. I am so quick to judge myself as a failure, and give up hope. This is something I'm working on, and hopefully I will be able to chip away at that presumption.
I've been struggling with depression a bit the last couple of days. It is nothing too huge, but it does make it harder to stay motivated. I am finding that doing the work in spite of the depression, even if it doesn't make it go away, at least takes away the feeling of being a waste of space. And even if I feel alone and misunderstood, I can at the least value myself enough to practice good self care. Onward.