Lack of motivation...
Saturday, September 22, 2012
It's not just Spark, it's with pretty much everything.
I'm still eating right. No huuuge meals, or skipping meals, or downing a half dozen sodas a day, but also no tracking for now.
Still exercising as well, minimum of 15 min a day, up to an hour a day. Still drinking 3-5 bottles of water a day. (that is around 6-10 8oz servings)
Going Monday to see about a gym membership (brother's friend since highschool just bought out a small local gym... *maybe* 5 min from my house. weee?)
I track my exercise daily, even if I don't track all my meals (kinda hit or miss with them atm.)
Been feeling really drained, I know it's stress. Dad has appt's this Tues, and next Tues, annnd the Tues after that, with various heart dr's, surgeons and nutritionists. They are about to put the fistula in, but he needs clearance from the cardiologist, and they want him to meet the nutritionist (who knows why. He can't cook, I do, and he's been on the renal diet for nearly a year... his issues are not based in diet unless he's downing mass quantities of chips when no one is looking.. and if he is, I wanna know how he's getting them. I don't buy any of that stuff since no one here is meant to be eating it right now!)
Still need to clean my room and put things away, just cba with doing it. Don't want to read, or go for a walk, or really do anything. Ordered a new Wacom Bamboo tablet to replace the one that got destroyed in the move, had a discount card for a website from a return I made 6months ago, ended up paying 23$ for an 80$ graphics tablet. Maybe being able to draw again will motivate me to do other things?
This blog is kinda disjointed. Kinda like my brain ATM.
Every time I lose motivation to work out, I read my spreadsheet of weight loss.
6.52% of my body fat
6.03% of my body weight
3.7 points of my BMI are gone
All this equals 21.6lbs gone.
The inches fluctuate, so does the actual weight, depending on how hydrated I am, and how much salt I've eaten lately, but it's around 4 inches from my waist, 5 from my hips, 5 from my chest, and 2 each from my arms and thighs. There is actual contrast between my hips and waist again (even if it's a bit lopsided. I gained it pretty even, whyyyy can't it go away the same way!)
As of tonight, my short-term goal is to be at 300 (or a bit less) by New Year, which is exactly 100 days from today. That is 36lbs in 100 days. At the rate I've been going (21lbs in around 63 days) it is possible I will make it to that, but even if I don't, I've done pretty damn good so far.
And I know, most ppl will say I am losing weight too fast. I don't care what they have to say. I don't plan to keep losing at this rate, but realistically all I have done is drop to a healthy # of calories per day, stopped drinking sodas, and started going for a walk every day. Nothing drastic, and it's all things I can continue to do for the rest of my life!
Ok enough rambling. I'm gonna try to get going and at least clear all the books off of my bed before time to sleep. Tired of moving them from bed to chair every day lol.
*Dream big, step small, and just keep going!*