Is anger a real motivator
Saturday, September 22, 2012
I've done nothing for a week. Since I have returned home from my "retail therapy" trip, nothing. I think because it wasn't really therapy. I just realized how crappy I feel and look. You know the feeling, trying on jeans, and every style fits differently or doesn't fit at all? Or, the jeans that used to fit but now the cut has been changed and the same style doesn't fit, even though you're wearing a pair you bought last year?? Yeah, that was my weekend. I did get nice boots though. The weather was amazing compared to where I live and that was a bonus too. I spent Tuesday to Friday in a meeting, trying to improve work flow. I enjoyed it, it was challenging. I had a week of work where I felt no physical or mental stress, yet could not find the energy or motivation to do any kind of exercise, even 10 minutes!!
Some of that was related to a relationship issue which I think is not longer an issue. The relationship that is. Life goes on I keep telling myself.
Last evening, I finally pushed myself to pull out the rebounder and do 30 minutes on it. I'm still not sure if I like it. With my ankle still feeling "angry" at times, my balance isn't where it should be and I find that highly frustrating. Three weeks ago, I signed up for the 28 day boot camp which I never started. Today will be day 1, as soon as I get off the computer. And that is where I'm at.
Oh yeah, while I was away, I tried to make healthy food choices. Difficult when you're staying in a community that has only fast food restaurants for choices. I think I did okay with a few glitches. We did spend 8 hours walking both days and one evening had a good swim in the hotel pool. I feel like I wasn't sedentary those days at least.
I just have this thing in my head, that when I go on my annual "end of winter vacation" I want to be as fantastic looking and feel just as fantastic as I approach my 52nd birthday in the spring.
Some how I have to find that push. I'm going to try to get my gym membership reactivated now. Still not sure what I can really do besides weights and I'm crossing my fingers, Zumba. I did manage to get a pair of dance sneakers while I was away. That should solve the problem of my shoes sticking on the floor and wrecking my ankle again. God forbid!!
Back to work Monday, so back to physical and mental stress.
Tracked my food from yesterday and doing today's.
I CAN do this.