As Panic Sets In, Points To Ponder [For Women Especially] - September 22, 2012
Saturday, September 22, 2012
As some of you may know, I saw my doctor back in July who sent me "good news" after she received my lab results, that I am now officially prediabetic. That started a flurry of activity and an 82-day quest to lose what I felt was a reasonable amount of weight (twenty pounds to be exact) before the recheck in October. OK. I set out my plan, I wrote my blog and I was determined to see this weight loss in 82 days. Absolutely doable, right? Now here's the kicker [and you women will get this totally], as we start to see progress towards goals that we set for ourselves, not just weight loss ones, we start to feel this overwhelming sense of panic. Am I right ladies? [I see the men in the back of the room scratching their heads and going, "Say what again?"] So many people have written similar blogs to this one, but I have yet to see an answer why this is, and what people have found to successfully combat it. What is it about us, that as we start to check off what we are accomplishing we get really scared, like "Holy crap! I think this time it's gonna work!" Welllll, that's really not something we are terribly used to, and we don't have the coping mechanisms for success. Failure we get totally. That we can write pages and pages about. But when we start winning, we brake to a halt and then more often than not, self-sabotage sets in. We simply cannot handle it. Now, my question is how to abort this behavior, accept that we are fantabulous and get on with the rest of our lives. I have no simple answers, I'm still learning all this myself. So, put in what you think may help the rest of us in the trenches. I'm sure many would be happy with the insight.
All I can say is I have about 17 days left and I will do the best that I can. But I really want to get to the core of this issue, because as many of you already realize, that is why we are here, not because we are overweight. And once I figure that out, I'm going to bottle it, patent it, and make my fortune.
Member Comments About This Blog Post
I think setting the "next" life goal helps. You know - "after I lose the 20 pounds I'll start doing xyz..." The weight loss becomes just a stepping stone rather than the "omg what will I do after I hit goal and life still isn't perfect"
Not saying it's a solution - just that it helps a bit.
1836 days ago
Take care of yourself. "Pre-diabetic" is a lot better than "diabetic".
Now regarding the self sabotage part I have a theory from my own experience. What happens if you lose all the weight and become the sleek thing you always wanted to be and nothing really changes? All the nagging life issues are still there? What if it is not "fantabulous"?
Some of us go through life thinking "if only". If only I had a new cool car, my life would be better. If only I had a big screen TV, my life would be better. If only I could get that promotion, my life would be better
If only I could lose 20 pounds my life would be great. Sometimes the fantasy of how wonderful life could be at an ideal weight is far more pleasant that reality. Self-sabotage is a complex issue, but even guys do it.
This is just my observation. Change can be really scary.
1836 days ago
For sure if there was one pat answer for that panic that would universally solve that problem we would be bazillionaires!!! And I definitely agree that women are the ones that go thru this as they approach success!!!
I can only say for me, I just kept focusing on "I want to get off my meds and not have problems associated with diabetes". I had check ups every month x 3, then every 3 months x 3 then @ 1 yr. during the 1st year of my diabetic diagnosis. I guess for me knowing that I had to be accountable to my Dr. for whatever the results of my behaviors were helped me stay on focus. does that work for everyone? NOPE.
Wish I had the magic answer.
1849 days ago
Please put me down for a bottle of that!!
1903 days ago
I've read your last 3 blogs, and I'm so inspired by your courage to do everything you can to halt or reverse the progression of diabetes! I've seen my mom and grandmother suffer with the disease, and it terrifies me, too. I don't have much wisdom to offer on the self-sabotage front (I do it when I get within 10-20 pounds of goal - although this time, of course, I'm getting close to that range and I'm hoping/planning that I won't let it happen again! Perhaps visualization is the key...).
As for the prediabetes, though - have you considered asking for an OGTT (Oral Glucose Tolerance Test - the 2 hr test where they give you the sugar drink)? I'm working on my PhD in diabetes research, and my mentor (an MD / endocrinologist) swears by the use of OGTT. It's a much more sensitive test than A1c in terms of detecting diabetes; it seems to detect disease earlier and thus captures more cases. Also, even within the category of prediabetes, the OGTT can distinguish subgroups by providing the useful information as to whether you have a problem with postprandial glucose (i.e., your cells aren't taking up glucose properly after eating, so the 2-hr result is high) or, arguably worse, you have a problem with fasting glucose (the fasting result is high), or worst of all, you have high results for both.
1905 days ago
Good question. I think the best way to learn the answer for each of us is to write an inventory of our past. I did that and learned a lot about my current behavior. Good luck and ignore the panic. You deserve it.
1909 days ago
So true~ We can see the light yet we are what stops us from reaching it!
1909 days ago
I know this is very common. Why? I really don't have any answers. I didn't experience this myself with this weight loss. I know I really *believed* in myself, and that I was definitely going to reach my goals. I think the strength of that belief led me to far exceed what I had even imagined I could accomplish.
Believe in yourself with a strong sense of determination!!
You will get there.... you CAN do it!!!
I wish you well on that patent & fortune part!!
One day at a time, GO FOR IT!!!
1909 days ago
You nailed it! I wish I had the answer to the "why" we feel panicked as we near our goal. I think you're right . . . that we haven't experienced success in the area of weight loss/healthy lifestyle changes and this is something totally new! Maybe it's wondering if we can sustain it? Maybe it is questioning whether others will view us the same way as they did before our weight loss/healthy lifestyle changes.
I know for sure when I 75 lbs. of my weight vanished (hate the word lost, because I do NOT want to find it again!) there were messages given to the affect of (Aren't you done losing weight yet? Don't you think you're thin enough?" Mind you my weight was still deep into the territory of overweight. So . . . on many levels it could be acceptance of the "new you" issues.
All I can say for ME is that this journey was for me and nobody else. I continued to do (and still do) the things that allow me to feel healthy, no matter what somebody else's opinion is.
Keep doing it for yourself. You may NEVER really come to know why this is causing you to panic, but just KNOW the sensible thing to do is continue on.
I hope this makes sense to you.
You are right, that you are not the only one who has struggled with this!
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