Saturday, September 22, 2012
As some of you may know, I saw my doctor back in July who sent me "good news" after she received my lab results, that I am now officially prediabetic. That started a flurry of activity and an 82-day quest to lose what I felt was a reasonable amount of weight (twenty pounds to be exact) before the recheck in October. OK. I set out my plan, I wrote my blog and I was determined to see this weight loss in 82 days. Absolutely doable, right? Now here's the kicker [and you women will get this totally], as we start to see progress towards goals that we set for ourselves, not just weight loss ones, we start to feel this overwhelming sense of panic. Am I right ladies? [I see the men in the back of the room scratching their heads and going, "Say what again?"] So many people have written similar blogs to this one, but I have yet to see an answer why this is, and what people have found to successfully combat it. What is it about us, that as we start to check off what we are accomplishing we get really scared, like "Holy crap! I think this time it's gonna work!" Welllll, that's really not something we are terribly used to, and we don't have the coping mechanisms for success. Failure we get totally. That we can write pages and pages about. But when we start winning, we brake to a halt and then more often than not, self-sabotage sets in. We simply cannot handle it. Now, my question is how to abort this behavior, accept that we are fantabulous and get on with the rest of our lives. I have no simple answers, I'm still learning all this myself. So, put in what you think may help the rest of us in the trenches. I'm sure many would be happy with the insight.
All I can say is I have about 17 days left and I will do the best that I can. But I really want to get to the core of this issue, because as many of you already realize, that is why we are here, not because we are overweight. And once I figure that out, I'm going to bottle it, patent it, and make my fortune.