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my first blog about me

Friday, September 21, 2012

I was so inspired/happy when I got such uplifting words of help today when i introduced myself in some message boards that I thought I would write my first blog... my weight today is 264, I need to start to get my head right to motivate me to want to be at a healthier weight. I struggle in so many areas I need to just focus and start little. I know my overall goal is to fist be under 200 lbs again but I will start with getting in the 250's. I need to commit to this because I am so over feeling angry and depressed all the time. and uncomfortable just being me now. I was always athletic build and very active in sports it wasn't until after my 2nd child that I kept weight on then after baby #3 and having back surgery I just gained and gained. I want to be a better mom and wife but I know I have to start for me, so I am really going to try to use my resources; spark people, fit pal, and talk more openly for help. I will strive to drink more soda and wean off diet MT dew, and walk more, try to forget what I think people will view me as, and work out more at home. I want to stay up earlier and be more productive. I had chronic pain for years and even tho I had surgery almost a year ago I always have that fear that I will do something and the pain will come flooding back and I know those thoughts have held me back. On the other hand in my mind I still see the athletic person I was and dont want to recognise that I wouldnt be able to do what I use to. I know slow and steady steps, it's just more hard mentally on me then anything else. hopefully this is a start to a better me, thanks for listening, this really did feel like some pressure off just to write out my feelings :) emoticon
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  • KJACOBS1111
    How is it going with cutting the diet soda? The chemicals in diet soda make us crave more food in general and fats. Aside from the addiction part of it...I battle with regular soda...I'll have none for months on end and then something from my old habits happens like a few weeks ago, we were going out on the boat and stopped at Subway and all the sudden all I wanted was soda (they had one of those fountain machines inside)..I had it...and noticed I was hungrier and craving it for a week after! It's hard I know, but worth it! I'm not a big plain water has to be very cold with a ton of ice and even then it is hard...I've found though that I love to juice...watermelon juice especially which is sweet so then I don't crave the caffeine/sugar at all. I just watch my juicing calories to make sure I don't go over.
    1709 days ago
    Look how far you have come!!! :)
    1765 days ago
    Congrats on your first blog entry! Keep them coming. You are on the right track. It 's great that you still think of yourself as an athletic person - you still are this strong and fit person.
    1980 days ago
  • POSEY440
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    1980 days ago
    I was a Mt. Dew addict. It was not diet either. It will be a year on 10/30 since I quit. I had one in May with a pizza and didn't even enjoy it. I would have rather had a water with Mio in it. I lost 10 pounds just stopping soda. I think I've had that one Mt Dew and 2 or 3 root beers in a year, and that is one thing I don't miss. Do you have a Y near where you live. Water work outs are easy on your joints and back. I have OA and degenerative disc disease. I work out in the water 3x a week and it feels so good.

    Good luck on your journey. I am sure that you can do it.
    1980 days ago
    Positivity and motivation are key and the support and resources on this wonderful site will help you along your journey. Small steps and goal lead to permanent sustainable changes and that is how you'll win! Best wishes on your journey towards health!
    1981 days ago
    You are exactly right -- starting with small step still take you in the right direction. You can do this! emoticon
    1981 days ago
    Great start! Doesn't it feel great to get it out there?! I have osteoarthritis and degenerative disc disease. At my heaviest I was 252lbs. I thought I couldn't lose weight cuz of the pain. I was also (and am still) on meds that are notorious for weight gain. BUT, I started walking. I started off slow..I started doing about 1/2 mile a day. I'm down to 216lbs. and I do anywhere from 2-4 miles per day. It is possible, girl, emoticon ...Getting started is always the tought part..Just like u said,, you have to believe in yourself. It's ok to remember the person u "were" but u need to learn to love the person u "are"..You are amazing and special and you are building a healthy lifestyle that you can live with day in and day out. It's about better food choices, better lifestyle choices, and lots of exercise...a whole new world just for you. You've got great plans..and the best part is that you've got a whole community on here that's right here with u. We're all doing it, girl! Set some mini goals..reward yourself for your efforts. Learn your "weaknesses" (mine are carbs..yikes) and learn how to adapt to them..don't deprive yourself..learn moderation..You can do this! Keep me posted on your progress and remember if u need a "cheerleader" let me know...I believe in paying it forward..So many awesome Sparkers were there for me when I first joined now I wanna be there for you!! emoticon

    1981 days ago
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