I don't know why. I'm 5 ft 7 inches which by some standards should be tall. I was talking to my daughter on their way to school and I tell her "I feel short. I wish I could gain about 3 inches and wear heels, I'd feel like Lady Diana!!" She laughed at me and said "Mom, I AM that tall and I hate it because I tower over everyone"
I thought about this. It's true. She's tall, very tall. In my family she fits right in. In my family, I'm short, but in society she's "too tall" and I'm probably pretty average.
But it came down to the perception we both had about ourselves and each other. We both longed for what the other had.
I wonder if this is what we all do with everything in our lives.
Well, the buggers are back. I didn't even creep up to 173, more like JUMPED to it. I can't understand why. Let's break it down.
Was it the lack of exercise since school started?
Was it the inconsistency of working out?
Is is Spark's Fall/Spring/Summer challenge breaks?
Could it be the three plates of nachos covered in Velveeta?
hmm, no. I think not.
I did my first Cross Fit class on Tuesday! Yup. I went in all nervous and looked around at these gorgeous (what are you even DOING here?) people sweating like no other. I was so nervous I almost didn't go, but I really want to beat that feeling this year. I advised the lady it was my first time and I was hard of hearing. I kept in my ears and she stayed by me giving me advice on how to do the moves and whatnot. Remind me to give her a card. Next thing I knew everyone is running out the door for a 400 meter dash. I tried to keep up with them but lingered behind.......they all ran to the back door to go in so I tried to keep up with them.......but somehow when I got behind the building I realized there were SEVERAL buildings and I was on the wrong block.
Yup. Got lost running around the building. Only I can do that.
Once I figured out which building was mine the class was already doing bars and practicing their "lifts" and stance. The nice lady (Aubry) came and caught me up. I still need to practice the stance (I keep jumping and you can't do that with weights)
Then we did 250 meter rows, jump on the box (I did it I did it I did it!!!), dumbbell lifts, more rows, more jumps, more double lifts...People were falling down on the ground and sweat was decorating the carpet. I had my 3 pound weights and realized quickly that they had been replaced with ten pounds (not by me, but the nice lady LOL)
Then we did like a captains chair thing on the bar for our cores and called it a class. Throughout the whole thing I was last, clumsy, falling, tripping, getting lost, and hurting. But, I also managed to jump on the box (something I never thought I could do with my limited vision) and row like it was nothing.
I came home, freshened up and went to algebra. After we all came home that afternoon I was still thinking about the class. How even though it was so hard, I couldn't wait to go back. I didn't tell my family I had gone. Not out of embarrassment or anything but because it was such a good feeling, I didn't want anything to taint it. I will go back on Tuesday.
After I came home, hubby says to me "we haven't had our walk in forever, lets go" I was already sore, but again, didn't tell him why so as not to let on I went for a walk...an 80 minute brisk, 3 and a half mile walk. LOL
To say I was sore the next morning could be and understatement.
Classes are a little stressful now. I'm into week 5 and this is exam week. I wish I could say I'm acing my favorite class, but somehow the features of the skull eluded me. I now know what a humerus and femur really look like though.
OH OH! Guess what?
Looks like we got a house. Really. The appraisals done and we just need underwriting to finish being picky about the file and give us the okay to close. Lots of good vibes please! It's funny how this October moving doesn't seem to stress me as much. Maybe it's because it is with my husband rather than from him. Yes. That has been one year folks. Alcohol free I might add :o) He's become more than the man I married and I might ALMOST venture to say "I love him" almost.
but I still haven't talked to his family **cough MIL cough** in a year....ah, life just keeps getting better!!
Oh yeah, before I lose my train of thought. So, I want to say that my biggest goal right now is to establish a workout routine IN SPITE of school and all of the above mentioned.
I went to the wedding. The dress did NOT fit (in the bosom area still) so that is still a goal, but the shoes. I wore them, they were so freaking tight and I didn't care. I felt like the wonderful quote from Sex and the City: "these shoes, they pinch my feet. But, I love them!!"
So I'm thinking maybe my birthday for the dress.....November. nah, I don't celebrate that day. LOL okay then HUBBY'S birthday in November. There we go. I figure if I don't celebrate a birthday I can't get older....
I wonder if that works on getting taller too.....