Friday, September 21, 2012
After a wonderful first week on this site I lost 7 only to gain back 6 the second. Am I depressed about this?....Yes Yet, I know it is important to pick myself up and brush myself off and go on...not so easy since I found myself fail all over the place the second week going into the third. It is time to HALT and try to learn from all this. What did I discover these are just some of the things:
1. I don't plan ahead enough. When you don't plan they say you plan to fail.
2. I was trying to overcome many bad habits I had become comfortable with all at once. I have to realize this weight did not come on overnight and all those bad habits won't go away fast either.
3. I also have to not let the scale define me was already getting depressed and saying....What's the use and took more food.
4. Need to journal since I am going through major crisis in my life right now and need to zero into what's eating me and find an outlet for pain and anger and feeling victimized by situations.
Well as you can see I am becoming more aware. I need to be more patient and loving to myself. I need to put the time and energy its costs to get healthy and lose weight. I need to be the caretaker I am in my job, my marriage, my relationships with family and friends. I need to feel I am worth it.
In conclusion...yes I lost and then gained...but it will not all be for nothing if I learn from it.....its all up to me. Oddly enough as I write this I AM ABOUT THE ONLY THING IN THE WORLD I CAN COMPLETELY CONTROL.......I think I get it so now I have to figure out the ways. Good luck to all of you out there too on your journey.