progress not perfection
Thursday, September 20, 2012
I have hiked and or walked the equivalent of a marathon this week! holy cow. I'm actually sitting here trying to decide if I am going to go for a run tonight or not. part of me wants to go and part of me wants to take the night off.
I've really been pushing myself today to get more food in. I have managed what seems like an awful lot to me but in reality is probably not quite 2 meals on the meal plan my dietician has me on. progress not perfection and the fact that I've gotten some carbs in and HAVEN'T purged is a huge deal. Today makes day 13!!
Yesterday I ended up going for a 3 hr and 10 minute hike and hiked 9 miles! It was AWESOME but by the time I was done my feet were so sore. the only scary part about the hike was that I was nearly done with my hike when I found myself about 2 feet away from a rather large copperhead. turns out it was injured which is why it didn't run away...but it still made me jump!! I felt like I had done a really awesome job foodwise (about 70 g of carbs, compared to my normal 20 or less) BUT my dietician said it was too little complex carbs for such intense activity. hope the carbs get easier....they are a huge fear food for me.
I am so fortunate to have my recovery coach! She's amazing and totally helped talk me down off the ledge today. My anxiety was super high and I had so much stuff going on that I really thought I was going to give in to symptoms but thanks to my conversation with her I was able to get through the day.
have decided on no run today. I'm feeling pretty tired and think my body could probably use a break after the hike yesterday. part of me feels very lazy for deciding this but I know that it is okay for me to not run/hike every single day!