Thursday, September 20, 2012
well, i recently posted a blog; i admit i had lost my confidence. this week i had the laziest week ever. i felt as if all energy was drainned right out from me, so much so that i did not even want to leave the house or talk to my bff's. i was giving up. then today i woke up and realized that i slept half the day away, which was a welcome exchange from my not being able to remain asleep and now i feel my spark has returned. i even feel energetic and ready to continue with my journey. i guess i have to learn to not let others be able to determine my self worth and confidence. i am on a mission. somedays i will probably wallow in self pitty again, but i must remember why i decided why i choose my mission; my children. i cannot allow my spirit to be broken by critism, and i cannot let the people, who all though love me, keep putting me and my mission down, cause at the end of the day its about becoming the mother i know i am capable of being; its about becoming a good role model for those who one day will struggle and look to me for guidance; its about finding who i am, and not losing myself no more to obesity. its about me, and my one chance at this incredible life i have been given. i may fall along the way, but i am grateful to have found a site where people, like me, know the good days and the hard days, but sill find their way to reach the goal.