Thursday, September 20, 2012
So...I just wanted to blog a little. It's been awhile since I actually set down and wrote a blog. Yeah I am mainly here to ponder my failure these past 3 months...But I just know there is a will within myself to lose some more weight so I can be healthier for myself, my kids and my husband too!
My firstt weigh-in with SparkPeople was April 25th and I do believe I was 223lbs...It's almost been 5 months and I've only lost 9 lbs. Now, I am not complaining about that, I am glad 9 pounds is gone, but I feel like in my mind I should've lost a lot more than that...and I understand I flat lined between June and August and just stayed at 213lbs but now I am back up to 214 and even though thats NOT bad at all, I am struggling to grasp why I didn't lose more than 9 pounds over this whole 5 month period...I mean I sit and watch videos of people and they have lost 60 pounds in 9 months...
Maybe I am putting way too much thought into this losing weight thing!! I know my problem is I am 100% addicted to food.
I feel like I have to have a candy bar every day after lunch and sometimes I do!!! And I catch myself sneaking in a Pepsi for dinner. But lately I have been cheating and eating crap I know I shouldn't be...So I just think to myself, maybe this is just one of those struggles that I have to pull myself through to succeed at this demon!!! Last week I blogged saying I was going to walk every day and eat right, but I haven't kept my word....Ugh, why does it has to be SO EASY being LAZY???? Why!?
Last weigh-in was 214lbs....I just want to see that scale say 199lbs just ONCE before this year is over!!!! I just don't know how...I feel like I am a failure really!!!
I'm not asking that anyone reads this blog or even comments on this blog...I just wanted to write this blog to get this stuff out of my head and into the air, sort of as a release I guess. For those of you who did read it and did comment, THANKS A LOT!!!