Thursday, September 20, 2012
You know that old saying, 'you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink'? Well, I'm that horse. More like the horse's hind end! I've been working on my motivation and being active again on Spark, but I haven't given it my all. When I commit to something, I usually jump in with both feet and give it 100%, but I haven't done that. I used to bike up to 70 miles a week, weight train 3 times a week, and track my water and EVERY morsel of food that passed my lips. Nope, haven't done any of that either.
We've been eating dinner late and going to bed within a couple of hours. Naturally not sleeping well, and waking up feeling tired. After yet another lousy night of sleep, I dragged my bloated SLUG-like self into the bathroom to wash up. I realized that I looked as bad as I felt. Gone was the healthy glow that I used to have, and in it's place was a bloated face and puffy eyes. The woman staring back at me looked tired and unhealthy.
I do some of my best thinking early in the morning. What didn't dawn on me until today was that I was afraid. And not just for myself, but for my husband Rick as well. This isn't healthy for either of us. I feel blessed in many ways - I have a great husband and we have a good life together. Yet fear sunk in as I looked at him this morning, and realized that our current unhealthy lifestyle and the stress of the last two years has taken it's toll on him as well. His mother's illness, her subsequent passing, and the horrific mess that we were left to deal with, and every unhealthy choice we've made - is written all over both of our faces.
But the fear of how all of this effects not only the length of our lives together, but the quality as well, REALLY hit home. We used to be active and walk and bike together. We're a 15 minute drive from the beach, yet we haven't been there ONCE in the last two years! We used to walk six miles on the beach twice a week at sunset. Now we're both always tired. This needs to CHANGE! My desire to turn things around for both of us has fueled my long lost motivation. Thankfully our stress has disappeared, but our unhealthy lifestyle has remained - until NOW! I refuse to live in fear over something that I have control over. So yes, fear is a great motivator, but at the risk of sounding REALLY sappy - love is a much better reason for changing your life!