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Fear, the great motivator?

Thursday, September 20, 2012

You know that old saying, 'you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink'? Well, I'm that horse. More like the horse's hind end! I've been working on my motivation and being active again on Spark, but I haven't given it my all. When I commit to something, I usually jump in with both feet and give it 100%, but I haven't done that. I used to bike up to 70 miles a week, weight train 3 times a week, and track my water and EVERY morsel of food that passed my lips. Nope, haven't done any of that either.

We've been eating dinner late and going to bed within a couple of hours. Naturally not sleeping well, and waking up feeling tired. After yet another lousy night of sleep, I dragged my bloated SLUG-like self into the bathroom to wash up. I realized that I looked as bad as I felt. Gone was the healthy glow that I used to have, and in it's place was a bloated face and puffy eyes. The woman staring back at me looked tired and unhealthy.

I do some of my best thinking early in the morning. What didn't dawn on me until today was that I was afraid. And not just for myself, but for my husband Rick as well. This isn't healthy for either of us. I feel blessed in many ways - I have a great husband and we have a good life together. Yet fear sunk in as I looked at him this morning, and realized that our current unhealthy lifestyle and the stress of the last two years has taken it's toll on him as well. His mother's illness, her subsequent passing, and the horrific mess that we were left to deal with, and every unhealthy choice we've made - is written all over both of our faces.

But the fear of how all of this effects not only the length of our lives together, but the quality as well, REALLY hit home. We used to be active and walk and bike together. We're a 15 minute drive from the beach, yet we haven't been there ONCE in the last two years! We used to walk six miles on the beach twice a week at sunset. Now we're both always tired. This needs to CHANGE! My desire to turn things around for both of us has fueled my long lost motivation. Thankfully our stress has disappeared, but our unhealthy lifestyle has remained - until NOW! I refuse to live in fear over something that I have control over. So yes, fear is a great motivator, but at the risk of sounding REALLY sappy - love is a much better reason for changing your life!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
FLYINGB16 9/23/2012 6:54AM

    I remember all of the he!! your deceased MIL used to cause in your lives. I can only imagine the feelings you and your husband had to deal with after her passing. Chalk up the last two years as your mourning/recovery period and begin your re-birth today.

I would trade almost anything to be able to have quality time with my hubby. He works seven days a week including my birthday and he missed the meal at my birthday party he was so late getting there.

If my schedule allowed I would be at the beach every day running/walking/riding my bike.

I try to remember what I have to be thankful for. When I have a bad eating day I try to remember how good it feels when I wake up and my stomach isn't bloated. When I eat healthy and get regular exercise (note: not extreme workouts by any definition) I feel balanced and alert and more able to take on my days.

Do like Meowmama said and grab your hubby by the hand and run to the beach.

You both can do this!!!

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VELVETLADY1950 9/22/2012 1:40PM

    A-Ha Moment! emoticon

Nothing like getting a slap of reality first thing in the mirror in your bathroom... emoticon

How exciting for you! emoticon At least now you know, why and how you got where you are. You have also opened a few thoughts of why I am here as well. Fear! emoticon It is a biggie! And an amazing motivator when seeing it through your eyes. My sister is a diabetic and does not control it. she is losing her eyes, her feet and her life. One of my goals is to motivate her by example. emoticon emoticon emoticon So healthy is my main goal. I feel if she sees me changing and feeling great she will want it as well. emoticon

Your hubby is a lucky man, emoticon you can hold hands emoticon and take your journey together. I always do better when I have someone to share it with. Keep us all posted as your goals become you! emoticon

Spark the Spark! emoticon and you did! Thanks, Velvet

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MEOWMAMA3 9/22/2012 11:34AM

    Take that man by the hand and run, don't walk, to the beach....well, maybe you better drive to the beach first! You've gone through the fire....and made it. That "fire" of stress seemed to actually motivate you to be a real tiger in the fitness dept. Try staring at your sil's picture to get you going....or, better yet, invite her to stay for a month or so....that'll get you out of the house and onto your bike!

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MT-MOONCHASER 9/20/2012 4:26PM

    Sometimes we just need an AHA!!! moment. Sounds like you just had one.

You know from past experience that you can do it.



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CATLADY52 9/20/2012 4:00PM

    Go for it! Too often we just fall into a rut and don't even think about what will happen in the future. If you know the way out, then don't let anything stop you.

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JACKIE542 9/20/2012 1:13PM

    emoticon together. emoticon

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