Day 30: Coffee and Chocolate
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Yesterday afternoon, between my day student and my night class that runs until 10PM (I hate Wednesdays!), a migraine crept up on me. For those of you who suffer from migraines, you know what I mean: my vision was gone, I felt nauseated and my head started to feel like a vise was tightening down on it. I didn't know what to do, since my usual path of action when I start to get these symptoms is to take some pain meds and drink some strong caffeine and eat something with sugar - neither of which I have had in a month because of the cleanse. I took a bunch of ibuprofen (couldn't take anything stronger since I had to drive and teach). Nothing. So, I slammed two shots of espresso and ate a few ounces of dark chocolate and hoped for the best. By the time I got to campus my vision was pretty much back. I was a bit shaky and lightheaded and my stomach was upset, but thank goodness the full-on migraine attack was avoided and I was able to teach my class. Today I wish I could just sleep to let my body recover a bit, but more work awaits.
It was a shame to break the cleanse by eating these things, which i usually take the time to really enjoy because they are treats, medicinally. I tried to do it mindfully even though I was in a panic. Of course the chocolate put me off my nutritional goals for the day, but I'm trying not focus on that. Instead, I am reminded of a workshop I took on mindful eating where we discussed the medicinal qualities of foods. What effect does eating something sweet, salty, spicy or fatty have on our mood? Sugar, salt and fat are substances and just like any substance that affects our physiology (aka drug), I believe it's ok to use them, as long as you do it mindfully. Whether you're using chocolate to fight a migraine or just keep the dementors away, I think it's ok in moderation. And chocolate is only one example of food-based treatment for specific ailments. I'm starting today off with a protein smoothie to help get my gut back in gear after last night. I will continue to try to nurture myself nutritionally through all the emotional turmoil.