Thursday, September 20, 2012
I had a really good day yesterday until last night. I got a little panicky because I am in a new relationship and I dont want to be hurt again. We had a good talk and he told me he would never hurt me which is good but I just have a hard time trusting him since I have been so hurt in the past. Along with that, I didnt eat very much last night and only ate around 1100 calories. I didnt even eat enough to reach my goal of how many calories I can eat a day. So last night I had a hard time sleeping and I woke up really shaky this morning. Things got a little better because I ate a good breakfast and he sent me a text message to have a good day. Why am I not happy like I was yesterday afternoon? It should make me excited that he was thinking about me to wish me a good day. Sometimes I really wish I didnt panic and I didnt have depression. Here is to hoping it will be a good day.