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Rough night

Thursday, September 20, 2012

I had a really good day yesterday until last night. I got a little panicky because I am in a new relationship and I dont want to be hurt again. We had a good talk and he told me he would never hurt me which is good but I just have a hard time trusting him since I have been so hurt in the past. Along with that, I didnt eat very much last night and only ate around 1100 calories. I didnt even eat enough to reach my goal of how many calories I can eat a day. So last night I had a hard time sleeping and I woke up really shaky this morning. Things got a little better because I ate a good breakfast and he sent me a text message to have a good day. Why am I not happy like I was yesterday afternoon? It should make me excited that he was thinking about me to wish me a good day. Sometimes I really wish I didnt panic and I didnt have depression. Here is to hoping it will be a good day.

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LB122802 9/20/2012 12:57PM

  Trust in God! Lean on him during these times. Today is a new day! I will give you a call tonight on my 7:30 break! emoticon

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JMANDA86 9/20/2012 12:30PM

    It took me a long time to not hang past issues over my current boyfriends head. I know it can be really hard (my ex cheated on me after 7 years, along with drugs, porn issues, huge credit card debt, his new gf that he was practically living with a week later harassing me when I'd see life was miserable and I was in a new town that I went to because of him and knew no one...long story!).
I got to a point where I had to stop saying what if to everything. What if he hurts me? What if he has porn issues? What if he has debt?
I did it with everything and it made us (us being the new bf) fight over stupid things which wasn't worth it to me. Whether it works out or not, enjoy the journey, the lessons you learn about yourself and the lessons you learn about healthy vs. unhealthy relationships.

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CHUM48 9/20/2012 9:43AM

    You have received two positive comments from SP who have been there, I will say the same, eat healthy, exercise, focus on all the good stuff in your life. Here's just my opinion, get your eyes of the guy and get your eyes on you, find your happiness in yourself then the"guy" happiness would be the all important thing. We as women then to forget our happiness is in our self not in anyone else. Be happy!

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TXTOAD9970 9/20/2012 9:42AM

    Don't let past transgressions from other relationships color your current relationship. Your current boyfriend deserves to be judged based on his own actions, not on the actions of others. You wouldn't want him to blame you for things his ex-girlfriends did to him.

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CHEETARA79 9/20/2012 9:38AM

    I think you'll feel better physically and emotionally if you eat in your range today. When I eat too little, I can get crabby and moody.

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    Most of the stuff we worry about never happens so take a deep breath and

Make Today a Great Day!

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