I saw the most horrific number on the scale. I hurt like hell. I've been moody. I started TOM today (on accident because I realized I didn't change my patch last week). I have a hard test on Friday that I'm not nearly prepared enough for.
AND I WENT TO SPIN CLASS ANYWAY.
Sure. It wasn't the best I've ever done. But I did the best I could today. And that is what matters. I showed up. I did what I could with what I had (that is two incredibly sore quads, a back twinge and a bad attitude).
I kept telling myself. You can't change by not giving it your all. You can't whine if you wont work. And 40 suffering minutes later, I patted myself on the back. Because I do what I can.
Got my Old Navy order last night. Only about half of the clothes fit. The rest were too big. People in the reviews said to order two sizes bigger than normal, so I did. Those people were on crack. So I called and arranged for two items to be returned, two to be exchanged and ordered three new things ... I think I am addicted to new workout clothes. haha!
But look how cute it is! And even I sweated my a$$ of in Cycle-Power, you can't tell due to the awesome dry-fit technology. As an FYI, I will keep posting gross post-workout pictures until you see all my cute new gear!
On Monday I did TRX for the first time since the middle of July. Holy Crow Batman!! My legs are still sore. And feel like they're going to buckle. And I look a little silly going up/down stairs.
I am going to have to work hard to hit my calorie minimum today. And that never happens. Woo!!
I joined a challenge to keep myself motivated for the next week. I can't wait!!
I saw the most horrendous thing today. Stepped on the scale and it read 250.6. *&$^#*@())!
Well. I am sure I am holding water (refer to crazy ST on Monday and TOM today). But still. Depressing. BUT, not for much longer!
I was feeling really low yesterday. Today is better, but I am still a bit funk-ish. I all of a sudden felt very overwhelmingly alone. I have two roommates but never see them. I don't have someone to come home too. My best friend lives 4 hours away. My close friends here haven't been around much. And I was left out of some study groups. I am going to try to focus on myself. And my cats. And positives and see if my funk-feeling goes away.
Well, this is about all I have time for. I gots to shower and get back to school to study more. Ugghhhh. Who wants to be a doctor anyway??
Hope you're all doing well!!
**I was looking for something as a title and I stumbled across this quote. I have decided this is going to be my new goal for a while :)